Allowing Others Their Experiences, Letting Go of Things and Their Stories

March 22, 2023 is fast approaching: Heavens' Cross (aka the Apocalypse: the great opening or revealing) is finally nearly here, and life as we know it is going to change completely....

We ALL will have access to our own Souls, Divinity, Wisdom, other realms while still incarnate here on Earth!

This resonates profoundly with why I am here. I don't want to miss out on this epic event in our planet's and humanity's history. Oh, the stories we will be able to tell....

The past few months since I learned of the actual date of the event (back in November) I've realized I've been cleaning and clearing house--on many different levels.

I've been watching my old identity really melt away. I've become aware that sentimental items that I'd just kept out of a sense of loyalty more than anything were keeping me imprisoned in the stories associated with them. I didn't realize how much so until I asked myself, one-by-one, if I should discard them and the answer was always a resounding "Yes!"

Ben, the worn and ragged teddy bear Dad gave me when I was twelve, got one last kiss and hug of gratitude as he found himself placed in the garbage along with a birdhouse knickknack Mom had given to me that a friend of hers had made. Along with those went a ceramic cat I'd had for decades that my sister-in-law (who had a cat phobia) had painted and gifted me. I didn't realize until the moment I let each one go that I'd been keeping us all in a limited cage of beingness--especially my sister-in-law. I'd been keeping her unhealthy....As for my parents--there was a story of lack of abundance woven into the story of love from whence the gifts were given....

I felt so much relief that I decided to tackle my cedar chest. I let go of the newspaper articles of my old boyfriend's accident and death, once again not realizing the low energy I'd been holding onto all these years. Into the bin went all the obituaries of all my loved ones, and with that came in the ah-ha's! of seeing how I had so many awesome memories of my loved ones far beyond that photo and bare-bones message on each missive. I'd been hanging onto the loss and grief with those dang things!

I've also been throwing away a lot of photos, many which are reminders of times when life was fraught with a great deal of lack in abundance in all forms. It's especially freeing to get rid of old photos of myself. I may have been thinner in them (and hotter, according to my husband), but I was also haunted....I seldom liked how I looked in photographs. Plus, after sorting through stuff when loved ones have crossed over, I've realized that no one else wants pictures of people they don't personally know. I may as well unburden myself now.

With all this releasing, I've discovered that my daily walks in nature--or shoveling snow, as it is winter here--are becoming physically easier, and so even more enjoyable. A few days ago, I slipped on the ice while walking with my husband and landed flat on my back, thunking my head on the pavement. I admit I've been kind of concerned lately about walking or shoveling on my own and having a fall like that happening. I showed myself that I'd be okay. I didn't get hurt--not even my head--and after giving myself a moment to recover, I got back up, laughed it off and continued enjoying our walk. I discovered I am quite resilient....

Trying to convince otherwise someone who's intent on being and acting unworthy is a waste of my time and my energy.

I also finally am experiencing myself letting go of worrying about anyone else in their chosen experiences which often turn out to be dramas and traumas that I've played in for years. I take full responsibility for putting myself in them--I chose to play the games that are all pretty much some version of the Sexual Energy Virus....and....now I'm discovering how easy it is to just step out of them and allow myself ease and grace while allowing everyone else to live their own lives and CHOSEN experiences. What a relief!

If you don't care about and appreciate yourself and choose to be well in all aspects of your life, then why the hell should I care about you?

Isn't it rather selfish to expect someone else to give a damn about you and your health--your joy in life--when you aren't taking responsibility for yourself?

If you're drinking too much alcohol, that's on you--I don't care. I just won't be around to watch you play out your poor-me, I'm-an-addict story....Blah, blah, fricken blah!

If you think taking legal or illegal drugs: anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds, or any other mood-altering substance (even herbs) is helping you cope, guess again....you're flat-lining yourself. You're numbing and dumbing yourself down. Giving yourself a chemical lobotomy--is that your answer? 

Ultimately, we all know on some deeper level that you're running away from yourself, and if you don't look at the crap you're trying to avoid, and grow through it by allowing yourself to FEEL and realize who you truly are, you may as well call it all quits. Don't waste your breath whining about the storms and dark tunnels of the soul that ONLY YOU put yourself through....I don't care!!!! 

I don't give a crap anymore because I know ultimately that every single one of us is okay. That all these stories are Divine Creator beings pretending to be All-alone Little Humans. We've just been gaining COMPASSIONATE WISDOM about our own I Am selves and learning how our own fields of energy/communication serve these eternal points of conscious awareness that we each are....

The best way to rid yourself of old systems that no longer serve your best interests in well-being in all ways is to make them obsolete in your own life--take total responsibility for yourself, and take care of yourself, appreciate yourself.

Those crappy healthcare, insurance, economic, education, business, media, government--and technological--systems are being a service to you in that they are allowing you to experience what it's like to depend on your outer world to take responsibility for your life--their failures and betrayals will either cause you to go within and you'll wake up, or you'll die basically fighting with yourself. All those old systems are your own creation--your acceptance of a suggestion about how life works that you alone have made your truth.

When you quit playing and seeing yourself as the Victim in all your own creations--these OUTER world entities like organizations or other individuals--their energies become released, neutralized and integrated into your Body of Consciousness, and are now available to manifest in a new form and service more appropriate to your free and sovereign awareness of yourself.

Wake up!!! Stop looking outside of yourself for your answers. Stop limiting yourself by defining how and who you are as a single identity. You're so much more....I am so much more....

The apocalypse is on its way, and we'll all soon discover that even the few words I've written here don't matter either....

It's so liberating even though I really have no idea what to expect....I just feel so much lighter right now, and that's all I've got--my present--

An Imbalance Towards Masculine Doesn't Make the Male Species Bad Guys

The Sexual Energy Virus--currently an imbalance towards the Divine Masculine--does NOT make anyone of the male species the bad guy.

All it means is that one's own focus (female and male) has been on, and playing in, the outer world. You think you're just a Little Human trying to have just enough to survive and get through this life you don't see much reason for living. Most of your attention is on what's happening outside of you--not on the important creative part: what's happening within you.

How and What we observe is colored by our own perception 

Even god is placed somewhere "out there" by a lot of religious beliefs. Put that god right there within you--give yourself the chance to realize you're not alone and that you never have been alone....

The scientific method is based on what can be seen and measured and replicated outside--and the scientific studies often don't take into account the human bias of the scientist or its human subjects (if there are any), nor the bias of the individual reading and interpreting the study's results. Have you noticed you have to close those outward-seeing eyes of yours in order to feel and perceive what is happening within you? 

An imbalance to the Masculine often results in having difficulty loving yourself unconditionally. You keep looking to others to see you, respect you, tell you how great you are. All of which is just a looping mind trap of an ego trip. Others love of you is never enough if you don't love yourself first. It just becomes an energy-feeding frenzy which results in a lot of drama-trauma. Welcome to Soap Opera Ville.

To truly love means to accept every aspect of yourself....and....to do that you have to go broader in your viewpoints than the All-Alone Little Human part of you is capable of perceiving. You have to see yourself as a Divine Being learning about itself and how its own energy field serves it through having experiences while pretending to be just a limited human. Only the perspective of your own soul, your own divinity--that self-sovereign master within you--can help you see beyond those human experiences into the greater purpose of you.

You need your I Am that I Am perspective especially with the really crappy created adventures where you did some evil stuff resulting in feelings of guilt and shame about your behavior. Once you recognize all the compassionate WISDOM you've gained from all your created sojourns through all the ages all that icky stuff is released and integrated in as free energy to serve you in a new way.

This imbalance causes one to seek power and control over your external circumstances.

This is a Survival of the Fittest mentality.

Essentially, you're simply fighting with yourself because there is no one other than you inside your own field of energy radiated from your own I Am awareness. Those perceived "other than me" are actually blips of plasma you created based on your limited human perception.

The SE Virus causes Comparison to Others and Competitive Behavior

Because of the perception that the outer world is all there is and that there is only a limited amount of resources or energy to serve us, it's created a belief that in order for me to win, someone else must lose. If I am going gain more, then someone or something must have less.

We each have an energy field solely in service to our individual souls. Everything each of us needs--including the type of experience we want--is right at hand. You don't have to prove yourself worthy of it or earn it. It's inherent in every single one of us.

Be appreciative of this Earth realm and the experiences it helps us to have, and take care of it by allowing the planet the freedom to cleanse and balance itself. 

Don't waste your time pointing fingers at other humans--whatever comes from you returns to you. Pointing fingers always, always point at the pointer when all is said and done. Allow your own polluted consciousness to cleanse itself instead and you'll do more for this planet and all of creation than any cause or judgment.

Just say "No!" to jumping on the latest bandwagon in order to have friends.

Causes, the WOKE movement, Social Justice Warriors, Religious judgment--they are all outer distractions keeping you from discovering the wonder that YOU ARE....

As for celebrities and politicians and the news and much of the social media--how can you honestly believe they actually give a rat's patootie about their latest cause, much less you--especially when you watch them trying to tell you how to be and what to think, feel, make your truth? They are the star of their own show, which is how it should be for all of us. I don't like it when someone manipulates my perception of myself by trying to shame me for being a human alive on this planet--for simply existing....

Someone doing good things just because it makes them look great on the outside is on an ego-trip, and all those good deeds are made null and void in that person's own reality. All the good deed-doing is never enough for that person because they are looking outside themselves for being worthy of living. A person simply has to go within in order to discover you have all your own answers--they aren't meant for anyone else.

I used to read quite a bit, and the library has always been one of my favorite places to go. I enjoy romantic comedies, mysteries, and some fantasy fiction. In the last several years our library has acquired a wide selection of DVDs: movies and TV series. The awesome thing is I don't have to sit through mind-hypnotizing commercials for products I have no desire or need to acquire or learn about.

However, lately I've been reading only a few pages into a book, watching a few minutes of a movie, or an episode of a series, and finding the plots are full of dumb, unrelatable characters who often do nothing but have energy-feeding, dysfunctional relationships, find solace in booze and drug abuse, with meaningless sex sprinkled throughout--even when it really has nothing to do with the telling of a great story. Agenda-driven diversity pushes, WOKE manipulations, self-pity-promoting, finger-pointing Social Justice Warriors: they've all wrecked my enjoyment of watching a good and entertaining story. I'm not interested in your crap. Humans are capable of so much more than that shit....

Musicians whose music has inspired me to dance and sing along, and actors, script writers, directors and producers whose works have touched me through all these many years have caused me to quit listening because they used their celebrity to go all political. They tell me how to be and what I should feel passionate about....and....all their hard work at being a bright spot in the world for me disappears down the drain. I want nothing to do with them.

This Sexual Energy Virus has helped us realize that everything that matters--self worth, purpose, acceptance, energy--it all is found within thyself....not "out there."

And my beloved human female sisters--the men truly are not the bad guys....not in my stories....

Love vs. Fear and Its Effect on Relationships

Love and fear (not hate) are polar opposites.

Love is open and flowing. Fear is closed in, stuck and restrictive. Hate has fear as its core foundation.

Fear rolls itself up into a ball of offense and defense. It blames others--that world outside of itself. It armors itself with protective gear and weapons and places barriers all around itself. It lies to itself. All of that causes the personal creation of situations where the creator and perceiver of that reality attracts even more attacks on itself. You have to stop pointing fingers at others--and at yourself (meaning you have to be compassionate with, and all-accepting of yourself)--or that fighting stuff never ends for you.

Love lets go. It allows energies to freely flow without trying to manipulate or control them. It recognizes that all energies are in service to you alone so there is nothing to barricade out. The energies in service to all-accepting love manifest and then neutralize--or return to zero point--where they are then free to manifest again in a new manner that continually serves its creator, experiencer, perceiver.

This is all the difference there is between being expanded and consciously aware and awake versus being asleep in a greatly accepted hypnosis--a mere suggestion--about who and what you are. Are you a pinpoint of consciousness aware that it exists that's created a human costume in which to learn about itself, or are you an All-Alone Little Human just trying to survive on a speck of dust in the universe? Is there a purpose in you existing?

I see all of this as my own amazing virtual reality experience--outfitted solely/soul-y for me.

At its deepest, it's the fear of being absolutely alone in a void that drives beings to doing probably the worst acts in all of creation....

I liken it to trying to save a drowning victim who's so terrified that they lash out even at the one saving them--some to the point of even drowning their would-be savior.

I get manifested in my reality what I radiate out as being my truth in each present moment.

The Projector: I am the pinpoint of consciousness that radiates (shines) out onto a blank global screen of waveforms about 12.123 feet in radius all around and within me that then coalesces into matter according to my perception of myself, of creation, of existence. 

Every potential exists (both manifested and non-manifested) within that energy field that solely belongs to me. It's my way of communicating with myself. Everything is actually "right at hand"--all the heavens, all the realms, even places on the opposite side of Earth--physical and nonphysical are accessible by me. You see, I never actually move--my consciousness (my awareness) is eternal and still. Somewhat like an omni-theater screen, my energies move and flow in and out of manifestation according to my perception--what I accept as truth--of what I observe.

Most human marriages are karmic in origin....

That means two people are drawn back together (not necessarily as marriage partners in all lifetimes) time and time again in order to gain the wisdom to resolve whatever imbalance they got stuck in. Often the roles of victim and persecutor are switched back and forth until one of them wakes up and releases the story.

Many of my awakened peers either left marriages or never partnered with anyone in this lifetime of our realization and embodied mastery. You see, it's all about freedom and self-sovereignty. You can't bring anyone else along or even gift it to them--to do so would be to rob them of the ultimate joy of having their own realization their own way.

With that said, I am currently in a marriage that has lasted over 33 years. While I'm certain karma has had an influence on it, part of me also recognizes that we've lasted so long together because we'd made an agreement on the other side of the Veil to do it together for as long as it served us to do so.

So, what am I getting out of this marriage? How is it serving me?

I've discovered what a web of entanglement and self-delusion it can be to be in a relationship in the sense that it's so easy and convenient to blame any situation I put myself in as my spouse's faulty way of being. I can dump all responsibility for not loving myself or taking proper care of myself, not being kind and compassionate to myself, not allowing myself joyful abundance in any way, shape or form on him--because he just doesn't understand me and know, or even care, what I need. It's always all about him. He doesn't let me do stuff...blah, blah, blah...Oh the pity! Turns out that that can be a major, major seductive stumbling block of a distraction away from my realization.

I'm grinning because, yeah, I've thought, said and done all of that above stuff repeatedly....and I'm going with the idea that I did it so I could write about it in this particular blog post. Ha! Ha!

And....as long as I keep shoving responsibility for how I perceive and experience my life upon anyone but me--well, I'll never be free and sovereign ruler of my own life.

If it's in my life, I put it there--even if I'm miserable from it, I'm getting something out of it, or it would no longer be in my reality.

These are not finger-pointing blaming words either. I have found that realizing I'm the creator of everything I perceive means only I can un-create it. I just have to realize how to do that--and I can't do that from the Little All-Alone Human's very limited and narrow perspective. I need my soul--that divine facet of me that has the broadest, greatest viewpoint of all that I am.

I remember a time back in my tangent into world and government conspiracies when I was so terrified for the well-being of myself, my loved ones, humanity and Earth that I wanted my perceived enemies to just drop dead. It seemed the only solution--but I was crazed with fear. I kept hearing Yeshua's (Jesus's) admonition to "Love your enemies." 

And I knew that I had to know how to do that with sincerity, not with syrupy B.S. that everyone knows isn't truly felt. I had to shift my perspective around to see what gift even my perceived persecutors were bringing me in being exactly as they were....What were they helping me discover and experience about myself?

Ultimately, no one has done or does anything to me that I haven't allowed--or consented to acting out with whatever role-playing scene is currently onstage in our lives. It's ALL been for me....and that recognition has helped me to allow myself to be human and divine, to be perfectly imperfect, to go beyond this human identity I've built up over the years....

And....to being in a state of utmost gratitude for all parts played--just for me!