I've noticed a strange phenomena lately. Ever since I posted about CHOOSING to cross that threshold into sovereignty and just giving myself that diploma of self-mastery, it's like I dropped all the guards I had in place supposedly protecting me at one time--turns out that was just a Little Human Ego thing--and I torpedoed myself out of hiding.
All because I started expressing myself openly to the public, the world, by writing a simple little blog about my experiences and insights and perspectives. It still doesn't matter if no one else reads what I have to say, and I don't even care if someone rejects me because of what I might write anymore--none of it matters.
All that matters is that I'm ALLOWING myself to FREELY EXPRESS and EXPERIENCE for the first time ever.
With the arrival of warmer weather, I've been walking pretty much on a daily basis, and when I walk, I find myself coming up with titles and topics and anecdotes to share. In the last two walks alone, I have about five post-it-notes filled with writing "reminders" crammed in every which way and two posts in rough drafts here on the blog. Which comes to at least four topics for posting on this blog. And they vary from money to napping to families and the young people and the pets in our lives. And still more keeps flowing in.
I've given myself permission to write about anything and everything--and if anyone reads this and takes anything at all with them from it, I hope it's the encouragement to do your own thing your own way. Give yourself that diploma of Self-Master.
It's like once I opened the spigot of ALLOWANCE, the water of consciousness just came pouring out--but it's coming in a good-feeling way. I'm smiling a lot and I'm not taking things so seriously anymore. I'm having fun and discovering there is so much to enjoy in life.
I'm simply the sovereign master of my own life, now wondering what I was so afraid of by graduating myself. Much of it was because I was afraid others would hear me say those words and would think to themselves, "So--she thinks her shit doesn't stink..."
Yeah, don't we all wish that...
More coming soon!
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Physical Symptoms of My Awakening, Part 2
A friend of mine recently shared with me about having difficulty with being so sensitive to smoke that he was having difficulty sleeping, to the point he was exhausted all the time. He made me aware of some awakening symptoms of my own that I forgot in the first post (Physical Symptoms of My Awakening Self-Awareness) or glossed over. Some of them I've experienced for so many years that I don't even think of them anymore--I just got in the habit of doing things that help me feel better.
I, too, am extra-sensitive to smells and odors--and I've been that way for at least a decade. That's why I didn't remember to mention it before. Smoke bothers me, whether it's tobacco or wood smoke--doesn't matter. And I don't like to make a big deal of it when socializing with people (I grew up around people who smoked cigarettes)--I'm not out with people because of wanting to criticize them. If we go anywhere there is smoke, I take a bath or a shower before even trying to sleep at night.
I can smell cooking odors in my hair--so I wash it every night before bed in order to help me sleep. It may sound almost obsessive-compulsive, but it's not. I don't feel dirty--it's just what I've found helps me keep the energies flowing through me, instead of my holding them. The odors can be a yammering mental distraction that can keep me awake. I take baths to help with sore and aching muscles, too--and it's a time for mental and emotional release, as well.
Often I take a bath or a shower in the morning, too, to help me get moving--we do so much more work in the night, and while we appear to be sleeping during a nap, than a person is aware of. We appear to be resting in this dimension, but we're doing myriads of other things in multiple dimensions while doing so. Just because our bodies appear to be unmoving doesn't mean we're being lazy--our consciousness is always flowing. It's heavy-duty work shifting one's reality landscape and foundation--and that happens on so many different levels of consciousness.
My friend mentioned exhaustion--and that was a HUGE one for me for a number of years, but not so much so anymore. About ten years ago, I remember awakening in the mornings feeling so exhausted I couldn't function. All I could do was manage to lay back down and I'd be asleep for another 2-3 hours easily, only to find myself still struggling to be fully immersed back into my body upon re-awakening, even then.
It wasn't just depression at that time, either--though you do experience, and move through, depression when awakening because your world is shifting and changing and the whole foundation of your reality is being shaken up. I was literally mentally and physically exhausted. I was releasing all kinds of old stories and beliefs that had been a part of me for so long I was unaware they even existed. So I had this mass exodus of energies, some of them stuck in old wounds and scars like a several-car pile-up, while I had this in-flow of brand new consciousness energies, knowingnesses and insights--many which were overwhelming to my human mind. It was a relentless bombardment of the senses, on my entire body of consciousness (body, mind, spirit/divinity, knowingness). To be honest--sometimes I just wanted to die in order to be released from the onslaught.
I encouraged my friend to not fret over the exhaustion thing--to let go of worrying about not getting enough sleep. Just take everything moment by moment. The less you worry about something, the more you tell your human mind to "shut up" when it gets into yammering "this-and-this-and-this-is-wrong" mode, and focus on breathing and calming yourself, the easier it all is.
I don't experience exhaustion from lack of sleep anymore, and it's not because I'm getting 8 or more hours of sleep a night. I can actually toss and turn with aches all night long every now and then, and still wake up refreshed as if I'd slept soundly. I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night--seeming to sleep in blocks of 2-3 hours at a time. I always use the bathroom upon coming to--the excretory system (bladder and bowel functions and sweat glands and tear ducts) flows and releases energies from the body. Sometimes I do a couple light yoga stretches; and at least once in the wee hours of the morning, I escort my lover cat down to her food dish. Yes--the kitty has me wrapped around her paw, but she does help me keep my energies flowing.
I also drink about 4-6 ounces of water before going to sleep and first thing every morning--even before my coffee. I drink water and other beverages throughout the day, according to what my body says it wants--and it's nowhere near the recommendations suggested by "studies." I just listen to my body. I've also found that I can drink too much water or tea to the point I've depleted what feels like the electrolytes that keep me balanced--I experience painful leg cramps and deep bone aches. That's when I let myself enjoy potato chips with sour cream (my latest whimsy--never used to have a chip in the house) or something else salty with some chocolate on the side and tonic water (quinine) tastes refreshing. And then one day something else is the desired food of the moment.
Once when I'd been sick with flu-like symptoms and a cough for a couple months, I found I craved sea-salt water baths--again it felt connected to the electrolyte balance in my body because I'd been drinking a lot of tea and lemon-water in an attempt to keep my sinuses and things flowing. I used sinus rinses, ph-balanced, too. Adamus Saint-Germain, Kryon and The Group have all reminded us over the years to be aware that once or twice a year the body will naturally balance itself--even embodied self-masters experience this--and it'll feel like the flu (influenza).
In June of 2007, I experienced 24 hours of dizzy, clammy, profusive sweating, nausea and diarrhea where I spent the night between sleeping on the bathroom floor or agonizing on the toilet followed by being bed-ridden the next day, even when everyone else in the city was hunkered in basements while the tornado warning sirens went off. I didn't even care. My beloved Max-cat stayed with me the whole time--never left the foot of my bed. He also purred away a very cramped and painful stomach on another occasion--these pets are amazingly intuitive helpers--and their service to all of us should never be over-looked or taken lightly and for granted. There was no flu going around at the time and I hadn't eaten anything that my symptom-free husband hadn't eaten, too. Before the other lightworkers brought up the subject, I had already intuitively concluded it was my body re-balancing itself.
In 2001, I put myself through a traumatic body-cleansing where I learned what a "toxic rush" was after the fact--scared both me and my husband at the time. After eating apples and drinking water for 3 days, I was supposed to drink a 1/2 cup of extra-virgin olive oil and take a sea-salt water bath in order to re-balance my electrolytes. I felt fine until day two, and suddenly was so dizzy I didn't dare get out of bed, and so nauseated that I was afraid to sip any water for fear of vomiting it up. I especially don't like to vomit. It's traumatic for me--ha! Anyway, in desperation, I called my brother and he said it sounded like a toxic rush--which made sense. All of those toxins (lead, for one) that my body had taken in for years were probably not going to be pleasant coming out. And it wasn't pleasant, believe me! I lost all dignity from having to have my husband support me in the bathroom after drinking some water and my finally accepting the fact that I might be sick at both ends. Everything moved out after that--I was cleansed. Shortly after that ride on the toilet, I had energy and clarity like I'd never experienced before. It was euphoric--but I'll NEVER do it again, and I don't recommend it for anyone else!
You don't need to put yourself through that. That was back in the old consciousness days when the energies were pretty dense and stagnant yet. I'm writing about this because I hope you'll choose an easier path of transformation--you can do it quicker, easier and more gently NOW than I did THEN. The consciousness is flowing better, even if it appears extremely chaotic in the world--there are a lot more awakened and awakening people in the world today.
I should also let you know that I used to be very, wholefoods conscious. It began with my parents. My mom used to grind flour and make whole-grain everything from the wheat my dad raised. We lived pretty much off the organic garden vegetables we grew, and the poultry and cattle and pigs that were raised by my family. We were organically inclined back in the days before it was popular. My older sister has a degree in foods and nutrition so that had a tremendous influence on my diet and exercise consciousness.
As I grew the deeper relationship with my own body I starting tossing out all of my old rules on healthly diet and fitness--simplified everything. I had a ton of mental facts and teachings that were obstructing my flow. I was going beyond the old human mind consciousness and beliefs. That stuff is deeply tied into a person's ego identity, too--we use our scholarly (hard-won, lots of efforting) knowledge in order to get people to listen to us and accept us. Who am I then, when I'm no longer a health and diet and plant-growing expert? It's scary to let those identities and roles go--to strip oneself of all those titles. But it's worth it in the end because you don't have to grapple to memorize and then try to recall gads of information from your over-burdened human mind. I'm clearer now and I trust myself in having the answers for myself in the moment I need them.
I discovered whole-wheat breads don't agree with me--I bloat up from them unless the grain or flour has been soaked overnight, which seems to break it down enough so my body can utilize it better. For a long time, orange juice and tomatoes just felt too acidic--I'd notice canker sores in my mouth. I also noticed that with garlic and began lessening that in my diet. Then time passes, and suddenly they're just fine and I feel myself craving them. I've learned to pay attention, to eat only when I feel hungry and what appeals to me in the moment at hand. I don't keep a breakfast, lunch and dinner/supper schedule anymore, nor do I try to fit all the food groups into one meal--it's often more than I want, and my husband knows that and is fine with it. We've been splitting our meals for years. Restaurants could serve me half the food and I'd be more satisfied. My husband is also experiencing symptoms of awakening.
When I'm invited to eat a meal in other people's homes, I can eat whatever is put in front of me--my body will support me in that. There is nothing I hate worse than someone complaining about or telling about their personal issue with some food someone has kindly served them. Don't eat it if you believe it will be harmful to you (like an allergic reaction), but you don't need to make a big deal of it either. It's called sensitivity and common courtesy. I've discovered I can over-eat, but my body is able to naturally balance that, too--simply because I'm enjoying myself and allowing it to support me as it was designed to do, without me getting all analytical and diagnostic over it.
In fact, the more analytical I am about where, what, when and how I eat--the worse my experience with the food--weight gain, indigestion, blood sugar spiking and dropping, etc.
I do best when I just allow myself to be in the present moment SENSUALLY ENJOYING whatever I ingest.
I don't enjoy poison, nor do I have to prove to someone else that I can ingest something I deem poisonous and stay alive--THAT IS STUPIDITY reserved for insane religious nuts.
I also have a strong knowingness that I don't really need to eat in order to healthfully survive--but right now I eat when the notion strikes, and often it's just a way of socializing and connecting with my husband and friends. I let myself garden, bake, cook and eat for the sheer sensual pleasure of it--my enjoyment of my gift of life.
When I feel or think of painful or frustrating symptoms, I think of it as stuck energies looking for the quickest release from my body of consciousness, and I deal with all of it by focusing on FLOWING the ENERGIES.
I keep 5 things in mind to help FLOW consciousness energies:
Breathe
Rest
Exercise
Water
Nature
Breathing: I close my eyes a lot and inhale a breath through my nose deep down into my diaphragm (put your hand on your tummy below your rib cage, making sure your diaphragm pushes your hand up), and I exhale it out of my mouth. That simple little act lowers the heart rate and blood pressure and centers me in the NOW moment. I used to have to make a conscious effort to do this because I was constantly feeling on guard, attacked even. So I breathed to lower my guard and just breathe all energies through. You can breathe it all through you--even the negative and dark stuff. My conscious breathing is pretty automatic these days compared to years ago.
Also, I use focusing on my breathing when I experience the mind-chatters.
Rest: I can't stress this enough--give yourself permission to nap--to lay down when you're feeling the need to get horizontal, whether it's just a few minutes or a few hours. YOU ARE NOT BEING LAZY! You need this in order to get balanced mentally and physically. There is such a bombardment of energies on a person who is going beyond the old mind and physical body that if you don't allow yourself a time-out, you're going to blow your circuits and either go crazy or get mortally sick. You can do that if that's the experience you want to have, but frankly, why put yourself through that if you don't have to?
Exercise (Gentle and Light): You only want to flow the energies, not hurt and stress an already over-whelmed physical body with high-impact exercise. We're already changing from the deepest levels of our DNA on outward--our physical bodies are transforming from caterpillar to butterfly. A few gentle yoga stretches and an easy walk outside in nature are my personal favorites. Swimming, dancing--it doesn't matter what you do--just DO NOT set goals to lose weight or tone muscles because it screws with simply LOVING YOURSELF UNCONDITIONALLY. The toning and well-being happens naturally when you let go of the mental goal-setting. Sometimes I lengthen my stride when my hips and back give me the okay and it feels good to do so, but otherwise I just walk in order to spend some alone time with me, away from my home-life routine. I have my best conversations with myself and insights when I'm walking out in nature. And some days--that nap is more important than the walking.
Water: is one of the best consciousness energy movers and balancers--drink it, bathe in it, and enjoy a swim when you have the opportunity. As I shared above--I use water (fresh and sea-salt) to help me clear and flow energies all the time.
Our Earth is currently experiencing shifts (some are experienced as natural disasters where there is a significant human population to notice it) related to the flow and re-distribution of water throughout the planet. This is happening because it shifted on its axis. She's allowing herself to naturally balance. The Earth, like each of us humans, was created so she could naturally heal and balance herself without needing anyone to fix her--just love her and appreciate her and allow her the freedom to do so. Sending humans on guilt trips for harming her actually stops the flow--just put down the pointing fingers and stop spreading fear-based stories like "global warming," and start focusing on her beauty and love of us instead. Breathe consciously with her, celebrate her while enjoying the gift she is.
Nature: Go for walks, sit on a rock or lay down in the grass, dangle your feet in a pond or wade in a brook. Just get out there and feel the earth and all of her life pulsing and breathing and singing with you. The plant and animal kingdoms are here to connect with us and to enhance our life experience. Those sunrises and sunsets are displayed all for you--laugh and dance in them. If you experience vertigo or dizziness--a common symptom of awakening for me, get yourself down (laying or sitting) onto the ground of the earth, take off the shoes and socks and stick those tootsies and palms in the grass--she will help you get balanced. If all else fails just choose to fall into the experience of the dizziness of the awesomeness and wonder of it all.
While my friend may not think so at the moment because the symptoms of awakening are not fun--I find myself giddy with excitement at discovering there are more people awakening around me. It's thanks to him that I'm writing a bit more on the subject--telling more personal anecdotes. I understand the fears, having gone through many of them myself, but I have come out on the other side of them, and I know it all works out. That there is an appropriateness to everything--and to just breathe that in and trust myself. Adamus reminded us a few months ago that even embodied masters (still physically alive) will probably still experience symptoms at times--and I still do--but I know it all balances eventually. Our bodies are denser than our consciousness, so in essence, though we've already arrived at self-mastery, our bodies are being pushed to catch up with the rest of us. It's just taking more time for them to do so.
Be kind, compassionate and gentle with yourself ALWAYS...it helps!
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I, too, am extra-sensitive to smells and odors--and I've been that way for at least a decade. That's why I didn't remember to mention it before. Smoke bothers me, whether it's tobacco or wood smoke--doesn't matter. And I don't like to make a big deal of it when socializing with people (I grew up around people who smoked cigarettes)--I'm not out with people because of wanting to criticize them. If we go anywhere there is smoke, I take a bath or a shower before even trying to sleep at night.
I can smell cooking odors in my hair--so I wash it every night before bed in order to help me sleep. It may sound almost obsessive-compulsive, but it's not. I don't feel dirty--it's just what I've found helps me keep the energies flowing through me, instead of my holding them. The odors can be a yammering mental distraction that can keep me awake. I take baths to help with sore and aching muscles, too--and it's a time for mental and emotional release, as well.
Often I take a bath or a shower in the morning, too, to help me get moving--we do so much more work in the night, and while we appear to be sleeping during a nap, than a person is aware of. We appear to be resting in this dimension, but we're doing myriads of other things in multiple dimensions while doing so. Just because our bodies appear to be unmoving doesn't mean we're being lazy--our consciousness is always flowing. It's heavy-duty work shifting one's reality landscape and foundation--and that happens on so many different levels of consciousness.
My friend mentioned exhaustion--and that was a HUGE one for me for a number of years, but not so much so anymore. About ten years ago, I remember awakening in the mornings feeling so exhausted I couldn't function. All I could do was manage to lay back down and I'd be asleep for another 2-3 hours easily, only to find myself still struggling to be fully immersed back into my body upon re-awakening, even then.
It wasn't just depression at that time, either--though you do experience, and move through, depression when awakening because your world is shifting and changing and the whole foundation of your reality is being shaken up. I was literally mentally and physically exhausted. I was releasing all kinds of old stories and beliefs that had been a part of me for so long I was unaware they even existed. So I had this mass exodus of energies, some of them stuck in old wounds and scars like a several-car pile-up, while I had this in-flow of brand new consciousness energies, knowingnesses and insights--many which were overwhelming to my human mind. It was a relentless bombardment of the senses, on my entire body of consciousness (body, mind, spirit/divinity, knowingness). To be honest--sometimes I just wanted to die in order to be released from the onslaught.
I encouraged my friend to not fret over the exhaustion thing--to let go of worrying about not getting enough sleep. Just take everything moment by moment. The less you worry about something, the more you tell your human mind to "shut up" when it gets into yammering "this-and-this-and-this-is-wrong" mode, and focus on breathing and calming yourself, the easier it all is.
I don't experience exhaustion from lack of sleep anymore, and it's not because I'm getting 8 or more hours of sleep a night. I can actually toss and turn with aches all night long every now and then, and still wake up refreshed as if I'd slept soundly. I wake up at least 2 or 3 times a night--seeming to sleep in blocks of 2-3 hours at a time. I always use the bathroom upon coming to--the excretory system (bladder and bowel functions and sweat glands and tear ducts) flows and releases energies from the body. Sometimes I do a couple light yoga stretches; and at least once in the wee hours of the morning, I escort my lover cat down to her food dish. Yes--the kitty has me wrapped around her paw, but she does help me keep my energies flowing.
I also drink about 4-6 ounces of water before going to sleep and first thing every morning--even before my coffee. I drink water and other beverages throughout the day, according to what my body says it wants--and it's nowhere near the recommendations suggested by "studies." I just listen to my body. I've also found that I can drink too much water or tea to the point I've depleted what feels like the electrolytes that keep me balanced--I experience painful leg cramps and deep bone aches. That's when I let myself enjoy potato chips with sour cream (my latest whimsy--never used to have a chip in the house) or something else salty with some chocolate on the side and tonic water (quinine) tastes refreshing. And then one day something else is the desired food of the moment.
Once when I'd been sick with flu-like symptoms and a cough for a couple months, I found I craved sea-salt water baths--again it felt connected to the electrolyte balance in my body because I'd been drinking a lot of tea and lemon-water in an attempt to keep my sinuses and things flowing. I used sinus rinses, ph-balanced, too. Adamus Saint-Germain, Kryon and The Group have all reminded us over the years to be aware that once or twice a year the body will naturally balance itself--even embodied self-masters experience this--and it'll feel like the flu (influenza).
In June of 2007, I experienced 24 hours of dizzy, clammy, profusive sweating, nausea and diarrhea where I spent the night between sleeping on the bathroom floor or agonizing on the toilet followed by being bed-ridden the next day, even when everyone else in the city was hunkered in basements while the tornado warning sirens went off. I didn't even care. My beloved Max-cat stayed with me the whole time--never left the foot of my bed. He also purred away a very cramped and painful stomach on another occasion--these pets are amazingly intuitive helpers--and their service to all of us should never be over-looked or taken lightly and for granted. There was no flu going around at the time and I hadn't eaten anything that my symptom-free husband hadn't eaten, too. Before the other lightworkers brought up the subject, I had already intuitively concluded it was my body re-balancing itself.
In 2001, I put myself through a traumatic body-cleansing where I learned what a "toxic rush" was after the fact--scared both me and my husband at the time. After eating apples and drinking water for 3 days, I was supposed to drink a 1/2 cup of extra-virgin olive oil and take a sea-salt water bath in order to re-balance my electrolytes. I felt fine until day two, and suddenly was so dizzy I didn't dare get out of bed, and so nauseated that I was afraid to sip any water for fear of vomiting it up. I especially don't like to vomit. It's traumatic for me--ha! Anyway, in desperation, I called my brother and he said it sounded like a toxic rush--which made sense. All of those toxins (lead, for one) that my body had taken in for years were probably not going to be pleasant coming out. And it wasn't pleasant, believe me! I lost all dignity from having to have my husband support me in the bathroom after drinking some water and my finally accepting the fact that I might be sick at both ends. Everything moved out after that--I was cleansed. Shortly after that ride on the toilet, I had energy and clarity like I'd never experienced before. It was euphoric--but I'll NEVER do it again, and I don't recommend it for anyone else!
You don't need to put yourself through that. That was back in the old consciousness days when the energies were pretty dense and stagnant yet. I'm writing about this because I hope you'll choose an easier path of transformation--you can do it quicker, easier and more gently NOW than I did THEN. The consciousness is flowing better, even if it appears extremely chaotic in the world--there are a lot more awakened and awakening people in the world today.
I should also let you know that I used to be very, wholefoods conscious. It began with my parents. My mom used to grind flour and make whole-grain everything from the wheat my dad raised. We lived pretty much off the organic garden vegetables we grew, and the poultry and cattle and pigs that were raised by my family. We were organically inclined back in the days before it was popular. My older sister has a degree in foods and nutrition so that had a tremendous influence on my diet and exercise consciousness.
As I grew the deeper relationship with my own body I starting tossing out all of my old rules on healthly diet and fitness--simplified everything. I had a ton of mental facts and teachings that were obstructing my flow. I was going beyond the old human mind consciousness and beliefs. That stuff is deeply tied into a person's ego identity, too--we use our scholarly (hard-won, lots of efforting) knowledge in order to get people to listen to us and accept us. Who am I then, when I'm no longer a health and diet and plant-growing expert? It's scary to let those identities and roles go--to strip oneself of all those titles. But it's worth it in the end because you don't have to grapple to memorize and then try to recall gads of information from your over-burdened human mind. I'm clearer now and I trust myself in having the answers for myself in the moment I need them.
I discovered whole-wheat breads don't agree with me--I bloat up from them unless the grain or flour has been soaked overnight, which seems to break it down enough so my body can utilize it better. For a long time, orange juice and tomatoes just felt too acidic--I'd notice canker sores in my mouth. I also noticed that with garlic and began lessening that in my diet. Then time passes, and suddenly they're just fine and I feel myself craving them. I've learned to pay attention, to eat only when I feel hungry and what appeals to me in the moment at hand. I don't keep a breakfast, lunch and dinner/supper schedule anymore, nor do I try to fit all the food groups into one meal--it's often more than I want, and my husband knows that and is fine with it. We've been splitting our meals for years. Restaurants could serve me half the food and I'd be more satisfied. My husband is also experiencing symptoms of awakening.
When I'm invited to eat a meal in other people's homes, I can eat whatever is put in front of me--my body will support me in that. There is nothing I hate worse than someone complaining about or telling about their personal issue with some food someone has kindly served them. Don't eat it if you believe it will be harmful to you (like an allergic reaction), but you don't need to make a big deal of it either. It's called sensitivity and common courtesy. I've discovered I can over-eat, but my body is able to naturally balance that, too--simply because I'm enjoying myself and allowing it to support me as it was designed to do, without me getting all analytical and diagnostic over it.
In fact, the more analytical I am about where, what, when and how I eat--the worse my experience with the food--weight gain, indigestion, blood sugar spiking and dropping, etc.
I do best when I just allow myself to be in the present moment SENSUALLY ENJOYING whatever I ingest.
I don't enjoy poison, nor do I have to prove to someone else that I can ingest something I deem poisonous and stay alive--THAT IS STUPIDITY reserved for insane religious nuts.
I also have a strong knowingness that I don't really need to eat in order to healthfully survive--but right now I eat when the notion strikes, and often it's just a way of socializing and connecting with my husband and friends. I let myself garden, bake, cook and eat for the sheer sensual pleasure of it--my enjoyment of my gift of life.
When I feel or think of painful or frustrating symptoms, I think of it as stuck energies looking for the quickest release from my body of consciousness, and I deal with all of it by focusing on FLOWING the ENERGIES.
I keep 5 things in mind to help FLOW consciousness energies:
Breathe
Rest
Exercise
Water
Nature
Breathing: I close my eyes a lot and inhale a breath through my nose deep down into my diaphragm (put your hand on your tummy below your rib cage, making sure your diaphragm pushes your hand up), and I exhale it out of my mouth. That simple little act lowers the heart rate and blood pressure and centers me in the NOW moment. I used to have to make a conscious effort to do this because I was constantly feeling on guard, attacked even. So I breathed to lower my guard and just breathe all energies through. You can breathe it all through you--even the negative and dark stuff. My conscious breathing is pretty automatic these days compared to years ago.
Also, I use focusing on my breathing when I experience the mind-chatters.
Rest: I can't stress this enough--give yourself permission to nap--to lay down when you're feeling the need to get horizontal, whether it's just a few minutes or a few hours. YOU ARE NOT BEING LAZY! You need this in order to get balanced mentally and physically. There is such a bombardment of energies on a person who is going beyond the old mind and physical body that if you don't allow yourself a time-out, you're going to blow your circuits and either go crazy or get mortally sick. You can do that if that's the experience you want to have, but frankly, why put yourself through that if you don't have to?
Exercise (Gentle and Light): You only want to flow the energies, not hurt and stress an already over-whelmed physical body with high-impact exercise. We're already changing from the deepest levels of our DNA on outward--our physical bodies are transforming from caterpillar to butterfly. A few gentle yoga stretches and an easy walk outside in nature are my personal favorites. Swimming, dancing--it doesn't matter what you do--just DO NOT set goals to lose weight or tone muscles because it screws with simply LOVING YOURSELF UNCONDITIONALLY. The toning and well-being happens naturally when you let go of the mental goal-setting. Sometimes I lengthen my stride when my hips and back give me the okay and it feels good to do so, but otherwise I just walk in order to spend some alone time with me, away from my home-life routine. I have my best conversations with myself and insights when I'm walking out in nature. And some days--that nap is more important than the walking.
Water: is one of the best consciousness energy movers and balancers--drink it, bathe in it, and enjoy a swim when you have the opportunity. As I shared above--I use water (fresh and sea-salt) to help me clear and flow energies all the time.
Our Earth is currently experiencing shifts (some are experienced as natural disasters where there is a significant human population to notice it) related to the flow and re-distribution of water throughout the planet. This is happening because it shifted on its axis. She's allowing herself to naturally balance. The Earth, like each of us humans, was created so she could naturally heal and balance herself without needing anyone to fix her--just love her and appreciate her and allow her the freedom to do so. Sending humans on guilt trips for harming her actually stops the flow--just put down the pointing fingers and stop spreading fear-based stories like "global warming," and start focusing on her beauty and love of us instead. Breathe consciously with her, celebrate her while enjoying the gift she is.
Nature: Go for walks, sit on a rock or lay down in the grass, dangle your feet in a pond or wade in a brook. Just get out there and feel the earth and all of her life pulsing and breathing and singing with you. The plant and animal kingdoms are here to connect with us and to enhance our life experience. Those sunrises and sunsets are displayed all for you--laugh and dance in them. If you experience vertigo or dizziness--a common symptom of awakening for me, get yourself down (laying or sitting) onto the ground of the earth, take off the shoes and socks and stick those tootsies and palms in the grass--she will help you get balanced. If all else fails just choose to fall into the experience of the dizziness of the awesomeness and wonder of it all.
While my friend may not think so at the moment because the symptoms of awakening are not fun--I find myself giddy with excitement at discovering there are more people awakening around me. It's thanks to him that I'm writing a bit more on the subject--telling more personal anecdotes. I understand the fears, having gone through many of them myself, but I have come out on the other side of them, and I know it all works out. That there is an appropriateness to everything--and to just breathe that in and trust myself. Adamus reminded us a few months ago that even embodied masters (still physically alive) will probably still experience symptoms at times--and I still do--but I know it all balances eventually. Our bodies are denser than our consciousness, so in essence, though we've already arrived at self-mastery, our bodies are being pushed to catch up with the rest of us. It's just taking more time for them to do so.
Be kind, compassionate and gentle with yourself ALWAYS...it helps!
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Thursday, June 13, 2013
Christ Consciousness: Rest Assured--No Soul is Truly Lost
How many lightworkers does it take to change a world?
Just one.
This was a question asked and answered years ago by the entities known as The Group, channeled through Steve and Barbara Rother of espavo.com. And the answer resonates as strongly with me today as it did back then, because it means to me that I can change my world and you can change your world, and neither of us has to preach to the other from pulpits, podiums, street corners or blogs--or try to convince anyone outside of oneself to get on our unique bandwagon in order to do so. It means I can be compassionately hands-off and honor others in the experiencing of their individual lives while loving my own sovereignty--my own gift called life.
That inner knowingness of mine had me aware, for many years, that the only way I was going to change my world was by getting to know myself better first; then, when choosing to make more conscious change in me, my world would naturally follow suit. I've known I shouldn't have to grapple with, and try to force, the world outside of me to fit. I knew it had to be easier than that.
I have watched politically-minded, religious-minded, and legal-minded individuals fight and try to convince the outside world to do it their way, and end up compromising so much that all integrity is lost--freedoms are taken and handed over on platters--and still the struggle to live together in harmony continues. It has been done so for eons.
I encourage you to take a look at all the laws in the books--legal and religious. There are laws that don't even make sense anymore. If you cannot read and understand those letters of the law (even though they're written in what appears to be your first language)--without a lawyer--should you be responsible and accountable for that law? Does it even make sense to try? I used to try to follow all those laws perfectly--and I was a perfect example of a walking ulcer.
And just because you maybe had a traumatic experience due to a certain situation, is it your place to force your fears and beliefs (based on that singular experience) on someone else by making a law that takes away another's freedom, their discernment as to the most appropriate action or reaction in their own unique moment at hand? Have you thought, instead, about sharing your story and insights gained from your experiences in order to increase awareness--that maybe you don't need a frickin' "I'm-on-my-self-righteous-high-horse-because-I'm-feeling-powerless" law to bring about a change?
Laws should be few, simple, flexible and clear--honoring all of life--instead of prolific as rabbits and as whimsical as fashion trends, full of small print and muddy terms.
Of course, we need living-in-harmony guidelines for things such as traffic so everyone knows what to expect and who should go first, etc. so we can reduce the number of collisions with one another--again, that's common sense. But maybe we should start thinking in terms of guidelines in place of lettered, written-in-stone laws.
Have you noticed how uncomfortable a government employee (a trained monkey) is when you give them an answer to a question that doesn't match the ones that can be nicely checked off in a box on an "everybody-else-needs-to-save-a-tree-but-us" pile of paper? Any time I see anyone shuffling a bunch of forms (hard-copy paper or computer) with small-print legalese I think, now there's someone trying to look busy in order to justify keeping their--you know it just has to be miserable--job.
Self-awareness and conscious presence will eventually one day make even those safety guidelines obsolete--we just have to start using it.
Is it just me, or does anyone else notice that mass consciousness ASSUMES everyone is a CRIMINAL first?
Case in point, stop in your local library and check out the ever-changing tax codes and their definitions and wording. And then just breathe that in for a bit and allow your inner knowingness COMMON SENSE to rise to the forefront. There really should be no such things as special legal definitions of commonly used terms such as "person, individual, citizen, employee, official"... Some of those legal terms make YOU--a natural freeborn being--a "subject of" (the slave of) an outside party--that, my friends, is energy-feeding, the sexual energy virus. Someone is asking you to give your personal sovereignty away to them--many don't ask, they just tell you it's "the right thing to do."
Don't be afraid to start asking questions about these things--especially when you can first ask it of yourself, and discover how you really feel and think about your life and the situations you experience. You've got absolutely nothing to lose by asking yourself the question first--except maybe some fears start to fall away. Keep it simple, and allow yourself to make changes and exceptions for different scenarios and situations--be willing to walk a mile in another's moccasins, to shift your viewing perspective around A LOT for the clearest choice with the most integrity and honoring of freedom for all.
Should you be accountable for breaking laws you're unaware of? When you sign a contract, shouldn't the other party have to sign an accountable name for their party, as well--and be held accountable when their practices aren't up to par?
When you enter into a contract shouldn't you do so voluntarily, with full comprehension and knowingness? How many of us were taught that in our formal education in K-12 grades when we were taught how to fill out an income tax form and sign our name to a one-sided contract? I sure wasn't. I wasn't taught anything in all my years of formal schooling about how to be a self-responsible sovereign living in harmony with fellow sovereigns.
I was basically taught to be a slave to the system in place (you know, like get a job that totally defines my identity and worth in this world, and then vote for the lesser of the two or three evils running for some office, supposedly representing me and my views). Most of those perpetuating that belief system aren't doing so with any sense of awareness. They're deep asleep in a belief system--and you don't want to fight with people in the middle of their nightmares. They're like cornered beasts--they do things cruelly and intimidatingly, out of a sense of personal survival and ego identity. And they will do everything in their power to try to keep you afraid and intimidated, to keep you under control--all in hopes of them feeling safe and secure.
In the Old Testament story about Moses, it tells about his big ah-Ha! moment with the burning bush--he walked away from that shrub of awareness realizing, pondering and repeating to himself, "I am that I am...hmmm..."
When I looked into declaring my own sovereignty two decades ago, the top of the documents we were taught to file stated the words, "I am that I am--natural, freeborn..."
So when Adamus Saint Germain of crimsoncircle.com began every shoud/channel with the with words, "I am that I am, Adamus Saint Germain of sovereign domain...,"--I KNEW this was it! This was my key to my own self-sovereignty, and it didn't require filing any documents or arguing or fighting with anybody. It was doing like Moses did--going forward in my life with that as the foundation of every breath I breathe, every self-expression and every experience.
Frankly, self-aware sovereign of my domain that I am, I'm nothing to be afraid of--but I'm nothing to be messed with anymore either. I no longer play the old games--I command sleeping suckers (visible or invisible) to transmute/change/"play nice" or leave my presence.
I love the parables Yeshua/Jesus used to share his messages--two of my favorites have been about the Prodigal Son and the Shepherd Who Brought Home Every Single Sheep. In the story of the shepherd and the scattered sheep, not one sheep was left alone and lost, no matter how long it took to connect with him/her. Time and distance didn't matter.
People who are deep-asleep in their illusion-realities are afraid of their own shadows, and so they try to control everyone and everything around them in order to feel safe--and they often try to do so by making rules for others to follow...
My friends--you're not sheep who need a master shepherd (for instance, someone like a "Savior Jesus"--I honestly don't feel that was his point to the parable) to run to the furthest corners of his pasture in order to find those of you who wandered off, got lost, stuck in a ravine in a flood, hung up in a fence, or trampled over and suffocated in a blizzard while following the blindest sheep--you know, that buck who's only at the head of the flock because he's high on fear adrenaline and running in sheer terror from some unknown evil out there. The rest of the sleepy, yet panic-stricken, sheep are following the raving lunatic simply because he's moving and appears to be headed somewhere.
I've always felt that Jesus was referring to something other than himself as the shepherd of humanity. That he was instead teaching about the CHRISTED ONE WITHIN EACH of US--that Divine Spark that remembers our eternal connectedness to the Source of All that Is. All of his other teachings seem to be saying the same thing. Don't look outside of yourself for teachers. They're going to say, "Look over here, look over there...Do this. Do that." Some of them might put on an entertaining show that provides a bit of distraction, but that's all it is.
Everywhere I've ever been, anything I've ever explored--the one teacher I always and only return to--IS ME--the one inside, the Christed light of god of my life that I am. I have discussions with myself all the time--and I'm damned proud of it!
My BELOVED SOUL has had many lifetimes of myriad expressions and roles--many of them I've spent as a human on this awesome gift of self-discovery on a beloved jewel of life called Earth. In some of those expressions I know my all-alone-feeling human identity was lost, deep asleep, terrified enough to have done some evil acts--but loss of my soul was never an issue.
The Eternal Source made certain FROM THE BEGINNING that NO SOUL would ever be truly and completely lost. No matter how many eons or lifetimes it took, every last one would eventually remember and realize the CHRIST WITHIN ONESELF and would naturally then bring HOME to being wherever she/he is. And that by doing so, she'd also integrate into her whole BODY of CONSCIOUSNESS all those other "once-upon-a-time, lost-sheep soul expressions."
The awakened you is the shepherd who brings home, and integrates, all the other life expressions--the lost and the enlightened--of your ONE SOUL. That's the shepherd Yeshua was talking about in the parable.
In short, there's nothing you have to do (no paperwork to file) to claim your sovereignty--that's what "I am that I am--Sovereign of My Domain" means. You simply live it out.
I worship and bow to no one, but I honor and appreciate all of this gift called LIFE--and I bless it with FREEDOM--and I choose to live in harmony with all that is. And so it becomes...
These are some of my answers to my questions. I encourage everyone to ask and discover your own.
An IMPORTANT reminder:
Are you humorously walking like a master--The Master--of your own life?
You don't have to search for the other life-expressions of your soul in order to integrate them--ALLOW your ENLIGHTENMENT, breathe consciously until you tingle, and just invite them HOME (to you), with hands-off compassion (not pity), while continuing to act like the master that you are.
There are old wounded aspects of your soul who tend to have tantrums and try to take over your life. You'll become aware of the stories and feelings they bring up in your being by the dramas, or sometimes physical or emotional symptoms, happening in your current life. When you do, COMMAND them to integrate peacefully, or leave your presence until they choose to come HOME gracefully. Tantrums don't need to be tolerated...
I had some tantrum-throwers, and they liked to run my show--always chattering in my head, clamouring to be heard above all the others. At first, it was frustrating discerning them because it all felt like it was me, but CLOSING MY EYES and practicing the CONSCIOUS, SELF-AWARE BREATHING-until-I-TINGLED got me centered in my own PRESENCE, and at ease enough so I could separate out the naughty, sometimes self-pitying brats.
The more you BREATHE CONSCIOUSLY and are at EASE in YOUR OWN SKIN, the more, then, you realize who you really are--the steadfast and flowing master of your own life--and the easier it becomes to perceive all other aspects and life expressions of your soul.
YOU ARE the LIGHT of HOME...close your eyes and feel that warm and tingling awareness when you breathe, and say, "I am HOME..."
Just one.
This was a question asked and answered years ago by the entities known as The Group, channeled through Steve and Barbara Rother of espavo.com. And the answer resonates as strongly with me today as it did back then, because it means to me that I can change my world and you can change your world, and neither of us has to preach to the other from pulpits, podiums, street corners or blogs--or try to convince anyone outside of oneself to get on our unique bandwagon in order to do so. It means I can be compassionately hands-off and honor others in the experiencing of their individual lives while loving my own sovereignty--my own gift called life.
That inner knowingness of mine had me aware, for many years, that the only way I was going to change my world was by getting to know myself better first; then, when choosing to make more conscious change in me, my world would naturally follow suit. I've known I shouldn't have to grapple with, and try to force, the world outside of me to fit. I knew it had to be easier than that.
I have watched politically-minded, religious-minded, and legal-minded individuals fight and try to convince the outside world to do it their way, and end up compromising so much that all integrity is lost--freedoms are taken and handed over on platters--and still the struggle to live together in harmony continues. It has been done so for eons.
I encourage you to take a look at all the laws in the books--legal and religious. There are laws that don't even make sense anymore. If you cannot read and understand those letters of the law (even though they're written in what appears to be your first language)--without a lawyer--should you be responsible and accountable for that law? Does it even make sense to try? I used to try to follow all those laws perfectly--and I was a perfect example of a walking ulcer.
And just because you maybe had a traumatic experience due to a certain situation, is it your place to force your fears and beliefs (based on that singular experience) on someone else by making a law that takes away another's freedom, their discernment as to the most appropriate action or reaction in their own unique moment at hand? Have you thought, instead, about sharing your story and insights gained from your experiences in order to increase awareness--that maybe you don't need a frickin' "I'm-on-my-self-righteous-high-horse-because-I'm-feeling-powerless" law to bring about a change?
Laws should be few, simple, flexible and clear--honoring all of life--instead of prolific as rabbits and as whimsical as fashion trends, full of small print and muddy terms.
Of course, we need living-in-harmony guidelines for things such as traffic so everyone knows what to expect and who should go first, etc. so we can reduce the number of collisions with one another--again, that's common sense. But maybe we should start thinking in terms of guidelines in place of lettered, written-in-stone laws.
Have you noticed how uncomfortable a government employee (a trained monkey) is when you give them an answer to a question that doesn't match the ones that can be nicely checked off in a box on an "everybody-else-needs-to-save-a-tree-but-us" pile of paper? Any time I see anyone shuffling a bunch of forms (hard-copy paper or computer) with small-print legalese I think, now there's someone trying to look busy in order to justify keeping their--you know it just has to be miserable--job.
Self-awareness and conscious presence will eventually one day make even those safety guidelines obsolete--we just have to start using it.
Is it just me, or does anyone else notice that mass consciousness ASSUMES everyone is a CRIMINAL first?
Case in point, stop in your local library and check out the ever-changing tax codes and their definitions and wording. And then just breathe that in for a bit and allow your inner knowingness COMMON SENSE to rise to the forefront. There really should be no such things as special legal definitions of commonly used terms such as "person, individual, citizen, employee, official"... Some of those legal terms make YOU--a natural freeborn being--a "subject of" (the slave of) an outside party--that, my friends, is energy-feeding, the sexual energy virus. Someone is asking you to give your personal sovereignty away to them--many don't ask, they just tell you it's "the right thing to do."
Don't be afraid to start asking questions about these things--especially when you can first ask it of yourself, and discover how you really feel and think about your life and the situations you experience. You've got absolutely nothing to lose by asking yourself the question first--except maybe some fears start to fall away. Keep it simple, and allow yourself to make changes and exceptions for different scenarios and situations--be willing to walk a mile in another's moccasins, to shift your viewing perspective around A LOT for the clearest choice with the most integrity and honoring of freedom for all.
Should you be accountable for breaking laws you're unaware of? When you sign a contract, shouldn't the other party have to sign an accountable name for their party, as well--and be held accountable when their practices aren't up to par?
When you enter into a contract shouldn't you do so voluntarily, with full comprehension and knowingness? How many of us were taught that in our formal education in K-12 grades when we were taught how to fill out an income tax form and sign our name to a one-sided contract? I sure wasn't. I wasn't taught anything in all my years of formal schooling about how to be a self-responsible sovereign living in harmony with fellow sovereigns.
I was basically taught to be a slave to the system in place (you know, like get a job that totally defines my identity and worth in this world, and then vote for the lesser of the two or three evils running for some office, supposedly representing me and my views). Most of those perpetuating that belief system aren't doing so with any sense of awareness. They're deep asleep in a belief system--and you don't want to fight with people in the middle of their nightmares. They're like cornered beasts--they do things cruelly and intimidatingly, out of a sense of personal survival and ego identity. And they will do everything in their power to try to keep you afraid and intimidated, to keep you under control--all in hopes of them feeling safe and secure.
In the Old Testament story about Moses, it tells about his big ah-Ha! moment with the burning bush--he walked away from that shrub of awareness realizing, pondering and repeating to himself, "I am that I am...hmmm..."
When I looked into declaring my own sovereignty two decades ago, the top of the documents we were taught to file stated the words, "I am that I am--natural, freeborn..."
So when Adamus Saint Germain of crimsoncircle.com began every shoud/channel with the with words, "I am that I am, Adamus Saint Germain of sovereign domain...,"--I KNEW this was it! This was my key to my own self-sovereignty, and it didn't require filing any documents or arguing or fighting with anybody. It was doing like Moses did--going forward in my life with that as the foundation of every breath I breathe, every self-expression and every experience.
Frankly, self-aware sovereign of my domain that I am, I'm nothing to be afraid of--but I'm nothing to be messed with anymore either. I no longer play the old games--I command sleeping suckers (visible or invisible) to transmute/change/"play nice" or leave my presence.
I love the parables Yeshua/Jesus used to share his messages--two of my favorites have been about the Prodigal Son and the Shepherd Who Brought Home Every Single Sheep. In the story of the shepherd and the scattered sheep, not one sheep was left alone and lost, no matter how long it took to connect with him/her. Time and distance didn't matter.
People who are deep-asleep in their illusion-realities are afraid of their own shadows, and so they try to control everyone and everything around them in order to feel safe--and they often try to do so by making rules for others to follow...
My friends--you're not sheep who need a master shepherd (for instance, someone like a "Savior Jesus"--I honestly don't feel that was his point to the parable) to run to the furthest corners of his pasture in order to find those of you who wandered off, got lost, stuck in a ravine in a flood, hung up in a fence, or trampled over and suffocated in a blizzard while following the blindest sheep--you know, that buck who's only at the head of the flock because he's high on fear adrenaline and running in sheer terror from some unknown evil out there. The rest of the sleepy, yet panic-stricken, sheep are following the raving lunatic simply because he's moving and appears to be headed somewhere.
I've always felt that Jesus was referring to something other than himself as the shepherd of humanity. That he was instead teaching about the CHRISTED ONE WITHIN EACH of US--that Divine Spark that remembers our eternal connectedness to the Source of All that Is. All of his other teachings seem to be saying the same thing. Don't look outside of yourself for teachers. They're going to say, "Look over here, look over there...Do this. Do that." Some of them might put on an entertaining show that provides a bit of distraction, but that's all it is.
Everywhere I've ever been, anything I've ever explored--the one teacher I always and only return to--IS ME--the one inside, the Christed light of god of my life that I am. I have discussions with myself all the time--and I'm damned proud of it!
My BELOVED SOUL has had many lifetimes of myriad expressions and roles--many of them I've spent as a human on this awesome gift of self-discovery on a beloved jewel of life called Earth. In some of those expressions I know my all-alone-feeling human identity was lost, deep asleep, terrified enough to have done some evil acts--but loss of my soul was never an issue.
The Eternal Source made certain FROM THE BEGINNING that NO SOUL would ever be truly and completely lost. No matter how many eons or lifetimes it took, every last one would eventually remember and realize the CHRIST WITHIN ONESELF and would naturally then bring HOME to being wherever she/he is. And that by doing so, she'd also integrate into her whole BODY of CONSCIOUSNESS all those other "once-upon-a-time, lost-sheep soul expressions."
The awakened you is the shepherd who brings home, and integrates, all the other life expressions--the lost and the enlightened--of your ONE SOUL. That's the shepherd Yeshua was talking about in the parable.
In short, there's nothing you have to do (no paperwork to file) to claim your sovereignty--that's what "I am that I am--Sovereign of My Domain" means. You simply live it out.
I worship and bow to no one, but I honor and appreciate all of this gift called LIFE--and I bless it with FREEDOM--and I choose to live in harmony with all that is. And so it becomes...
These are some of my answers to my questions. I encourage everyone to ask and discover your own.
An IMPORTANT reminder:
Are you humorously walking like a master--The Master--of your own life?
You don't have to search for the other life-expressions of your soul in order to integrate them--ALLOW your ENLIGHTENMENT, breathe consciously until you tingle, and just invite them HOME (to you), with hands-off compassion (not pity), while continuing to act like the master that you are.
There are old wounded aspects of your soul who tend to have tantrums and try to take over your life. You'll become aware of the stories and feelings they bring up in your being by the dramas, or sometimes physical or emotional symptoms, happening in your current life. When you do, COMMAND them to integrate peacefully, or leave your presence until they choose to come HOME gracefully. Tantrums don't need to be tolerated...
I had some tantrum-throwers, and they liked to run my show--always chattering in my head, clamouring to be heard above all the others. At first, it was frustrating discerning them because it all felt like it was me, but CLOSING MY EYES and practicing the CONSCIOUS, SELF-AWARE BREATHING-until-I-TINGLED got me centered in my own PRESENCE, and at ease enough so I could separate out the naughty, sometimes self-pitying brats.
The more you BREATHE CONSCIOUSLY and are at EASE in YOUR OWN SKIN, the more, then, you realize who you really are--the steadfast and flowing master of your own life--and the easier it becomes to perceive all other aspects and life expressions of your soul.
YOU ARE the LIGHT of HOME...close your eyes and feel that warm and tingling awareness when you breathe, and say, "I am HOME..."
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Dorothy Lynch Chicken Salad with Grapes
Dorothy Lynch Chicken Salad with Grapes
Submitted by Penny Lewton Binek
This is one of Leona Lewton's family's favorite recipes for summer gatherings at the farm or when fishing down at Haley Dam--she's the one who started adding Dorothy Lynch Dressing to a chicken salad with grapes in it, and I decided to spice up the chicken.
Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing must be a mid-western thing, so in case your grocery store doesn't carry it, I'll include a recipe for it. I usually just dump the salad ingredients together, adjusting amounts depending on how full my bowl looks so my measurements here are approximations.
1 lb. Chicken Breasts, cooked and cubed (I often cube a package of chicken breasts and brown it in 1 Tbsp. of oil, then simmer it 5 minutes--until cooked through--with a packet of Chicken Taco seasoning and a 1/2 cup of water. Set aside to cool).
1 box (4 c.) Dry Medium Shell Macaroni (cook according to package instructions, rinse with cold water and set aside to drain)
3-4 Stalks Celery, chopped
1 Cucumber, quartered lengthwise and sliced in 1/4-3/8 inch wide pieces (I like English Burpless Cucumbers with the peelings on if available, but I've peeled the cucumber, too)
2 c. Red Seedless Grapes, halved
1-2 c. Grated Colby-Jack or Pepper Jack Cheese
1-2 c. Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing
Romaine Lettuce (optional)
Fresh-ground Black Pepper to taste
Place all the salad ingredients in a large serving bowl. Pour 1 cup of the salad dressing over the rest of the ingredients and gently toss until everything is coated, adding more dressing as needed to desired taste and smoothness. Chill and serve in a large bowl or over Romaine lettuce on individual plates. I like to serve this with kettle-cooked potato chips on the side. Approximately 6 servings. Prep. time: 30 minutes.
Also--this is just a standard recipe--I encourage creativity in exploring more fruits and vegetables to add. I've added apples in the past. Fresh pineapple might be good, too.
Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing
1 c. Sugar (or 2/3 c. Honey)
1 tsp. Celery Seed
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Garlic Powder
1 tsp. Black Pepper
1 c. Salad Oil
1 tsp. Dry Mustard
1/2 c. White Vinegar
1 can Tomato Soup
Blend in blender. Store in refrigerator.
We love this dressing! We use it in crab salads and as a table salad dressing, too. It's also a delicious condiment for meats--works great as a BBQ sauce for grilling.
Submitted by Penny Lewton Binek
This is one of Leona Lewton's family's favorite recipes for summer gatherings at the farm or when fishing down at Haley Dam--she's the one who started adding Dorothy Lynch Dressing to a chicken salad with grapes in it, and I decided to spice up the chicken.
Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing must be a mid-western thing, so in case your grocery store doesn't carry it, I'll include a recipe for it. I usually just dump the salad ingredients together, adjusting amounts depending on how full my bowl looks so my measurements here are approximations.
1 lb. Chicken Breasts, cooked and cubed (I often cube a package of chicken breasts and brown it in 1 Tbsp. of oil, then simmer it 5 minutes--until cooked through--with a packet of Chicken Taco seasoning and a 1/2 cup of water. Set aside to cool).
1 box (4 c.) Dry Medium Shell Macaroni (cook according to package instructions, rinse with cold water and set aside to drain)
3-4 Stalks Celery, chopped
1 Cucumber, quartered lengthwise and sliced in 1/4-3/8 inch wide pieces (I like English Burpless Cucumbers with the peelings on if available, but I've peeled the cucumber, too)
2 c. Red Seedless Grapes, halved
1-2 c. Grated Colby-Jack or Pepper Jack Cheese
1-2 c. Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing
Romaine Lettuce (optional)
Fresh-ground Black Pepper to taste
Place all the salad ingredients in a large serving bowl. Pour 1 cup of the salad dressing over the rest of the ingredients and gently toss until everything is coated, adding more dressing as needed to desired taste and smoothness. Chill and serve in a large bowl or over Romaine lettuce on individual plates. I like to serve this with kettle-cooked potato chips on the side. Approximately 6 servings. Prep. time: 30 minutes.
Also--this is just a standard recipe--I encourage creativity in exploring more fruits and vegetables to add. I've added apples in the past. Fresh pineapple might be good, too.
Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing
1 c. Sugar (or 2/3 c. Honey)
1 tsp. Celery Seed
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Garlic Powder
1 tsp. Black Pepper
1 c. Salad Oil
1 tsp. Dry Mustard
1/2 c. White Vinegar
1 can Tomato Soup
Blend in blender. Store in refrigerator.
We love this dressing! We use it in crab salads and as a table salad dressing, too. It's also a delicious condiment for meats--works great as a BBQ sauce for grilling.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Blackberry Brandy Apple Pie
Blackberry Brandy Apple Pie
Preheat oven: 375 Degrees Fahrenheit
Filling:
In a large mixing bowl combine:
1/2 c. Sugar
2 tsp. Cinnamon
1 Tbsp. Cornstarch
1/4 c. Blackberry Brandy
1 t. Vanilla
Toss into bowl to evenly coat with the brandy mixture and set aside while mixing crust:
6-8 Granny Smith Apples, peeled and sliced (enough to heap into a pie plate, mounded 2-3 inches higher than the rim)
Preheat oven to 425 degrees Fahrenheit
Pie Crust:
Using a wire whisk, sift together the dry ingredients:
2 c. Flour, All-purpose
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Baking Powder
1 tsp. Cornstarch
Using a pastry blender, cut into the flour mixture until coarsely distributed:
2/3 c. Lard (When I come up with a really tasty substitute for this, I'll post it here)
2 Tbsp. Butter
Mix together and pour 1 Tablespoon at a time, into center of crumb mixture, tossing lightly with a fork until dough sticks together:
1 Tbsp.Apple Cider Vinegar
5 Tbsp. Ice-cold Water
1 t. Vanilla
1 t Blackberry Brandy
Gently pat dough to form a ball, divide in half. Roll out the first half on a lightly floured surface to make the bottom crust, gently laying it in the pie plate and up and over the sides. Trim the circle with a sharp knife, leaving 3/4-1 inch of dough draping over the edge.
Mix the apples a bit and pour entire contents into the bottom crust, patting the apples into place. Dot with a couple Tablespoons of butter.
Roll 2nd half of pastry dough into a circle large enough to cover the apples and drape over the rim of the pie plate. Using a sharp knife, make a few decorative air holes in the top crust to vent. I use an egg wash of 1 well-beaten egg mixed with 2 tsp. water to brush around the rim of the bottom crust to seal the two crust layers together at the edges. Pinch to form a scalloped edge.
*(I've been playing with lattice crusts lately, in which case I use a pizza cutter to cut the 2nd pastry circle into 1/2-inch strips to weave like a basket across the top. I roll the bottom lip over the strips at the edge and pinch the crusts to make a scalloped edge).*
Using a pastry brush, brush the entire surface of the pie with the egg wash and sprinkle with cinnamon and sugar (or just plain sugar).
Place foil around edge to prevent burned edges. Place on center rack of preheated oven, and bake at 375 degrees, 50-60 minutes until bubbly and apples are soft and tender enough to poke through with a knife or toothpick. .
We like our pie with a small scoop of Vanilla Bean or Butter Pecan ice cream.
Preheat oven: 375 Degrees Fahrenheit
Filling:
In a large mixing bowl combine:
1/2 c. Sugar
2 tsp. Cinnamon
1 Tbsp. Cornstarch
1/4 c. Blackberry Brandy
1 t. Vanilla
Toss into bowl to evenly coat with the brandy mixture and set aside while mixing crust:
6-8 Granny Smith Apples, peeled and sliced (enough to heap into a pie plate, mounded 2-3 inches higher than the rim)
Preheat oven to 425 degrees Fahrenheit
Pie Crust:
Using a wire whisk, sift together the dry ingredients:
2 c. Flour, All-purpose
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Baking Powder
1 tsp. Cornstarch
Using a pastry blender, cut into the flour mixture until coarsely distributed:
2/3 c. Lard (When I come up with a really tasty substitute for this, I'll post it here)
2 Tbsp. Butter
Mix together and pour 1 Tablespoon at a time, into center of crumb mixture, tossing lightly with a fork until dough sticks together:
1 Tbsp.Apple Cider Vinegar
5 Tbsp. Ice-cold Water
1 t. Vanilla
1 t Blackberry Brandy
Gently pat dough to form a ball, divide in half. Roll out the first half on a lightly floured surface to make the bottom crust, gently laying it in the pie plate and up and over the sides. Trim the circle with a sharp knife, leaving 3/4-1 inch of dough draping over the edge.
Mix the apples a bit and pour entire contents into the bottom crust, patting the apples into place. Dot with a couple Tablespoons of butter.
Roll 2nd half of pastry dough into a circle large enough to cover the apples and drape over the rim of the pie plate. Using a sharp knife, make a few decorative air holes in the top crust to vent. I use an egg wash of 1 well-beaten egg mixed with 2 tsp. water to brush around the rim of the bottom crust to seal the two crust layers together at the edges. Pinch to form a scalloped edge.
*(I've been playing with lattice crusts lately, in which case I use a pizza cutter to cut the 2nd pastry circle into 1/2-inch strips to weave like a basket across the top. I roll the bottom lip over the strips at the edge and pinch the crusts to make a scalloped edge).*
Using a pastry brush, brush the entire surface of the pie with the egg wash and sprinkle with cinnamon and sugar (or just plain sugar).
Place foil around edge to prevent burned edges. Place on center rack of preheated oven, and bake at 375 degrees, 50-60 minutes until bubbly and apples are soft and tender enough to poke through with a knife or toothpick. .
We like our pie with a small scoop of Vanilla Bean or Butter Pecan ice cream.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
All Is Well in All of Creation
When I find myself caught up in a story (a soap opera drama-trauma), worrying and stewing with mind chatter racing through, causing my shoulders and jaws to tighten and clench, my stomach to roil--"What's wrong? What's wrong? Something's wrong here."--I remind myself:
Take a breath, walk like a master, and remember--
"All is well in all of Creation."
And I keep walking and breathing and remembering that until I'm radiating peace and calm in place of the fretting and anxiety.
In a shoud in 2004, Beloved Ascended (Self-) Master Kuthumi said that the one thing he'd asked himself after he'd ascended was, "If you knew everything was going to turn out all right in the end--that that was the potential you'd chosen to experience--would you have done things differently, would you have worried less?"
My Beloved Self-Master, Adamus Saint-Germain, ends every shoud with the reminder, "All is well in all of Creation."
There is a reason for that:
Every time we look and feel inside and outside ourselves, we've been ingrained to look for things that are wrong in our world--injustices, disease, death, suffering, to name a few.
Looking for the things that are "wrong"--that there is "a need" to fix or fulfill--is a symptom and perpetuator of the SEXUAL ENERGY VIRUS in consciousness. (For more on this topic click here).
The quickest way to bring it to a halt is to breathe deep down into your belly (it eases the energies and lowers the panic)--and say over and over, "All is well in all of Creation."
When you do that--you lower your blood pressure and heart rate (the Fight or Flight Response), you radiate that out to the Universe in place of the tension and worry, and it matches it in kind--All simply becomes well in all of Creation.
You've centered and allowed yourself to re-balance.
So whenever I feel a physical pain, I take a breath and remind myself that all is well. It all passes eventually--some symptoms faster than others. But I don't suffer acute pain for very long anymore. For me, a diagnosis only makes it into a story and a fight, so I don't even go there anymore. I just realize, as Kuthumi did--everything is turning out okay (I've chosen that potential) so I'm no longer going to fret over it. I'm going to enjoy my life, even if that means taking a nap to ease the pain of the symptoms for myself in the moment at hand. Nothing is really wrong at all. (Click here for some physical symptoms of my awakening.)
I remind myself that a caterpillar who dissolves into mush (inside a comfy cocoon) on its way to transforming into the grand butterfly is probably going to experience some pain in the process.
When I was chosen for jury duty and had no desire to play in that game any longer (sitting as a judge of others didn't resonate with me), I let go of fighting or defending my stance on it; and instead chose to breathe and let the whole story go (allowed the Universe to match my ease). And though I'd been chosen for jury selection in two trials, they were miraculously settled out of court and I never had to go in.
And when I find myself in the midst of relationship squabbles, I breathe, step back to get a broader perspective--and realize that those squabbling are actually enjoying the experience--that there is nothing I need to mediate or fix for others.
In essence, I've immersed myself in enough experiences and stories and fears to realize that it all really does work out in the end. I'm done searching for, and pointing out all the "wrong" things in my world.
The cherry tree outside my window seemingly exploding with blackened scabs that I was taught was a blight that needed pruning the right way, I choose to now view it as the opportunity to see a new world unfurling before my eyes--effortlessly, with ease and grace that I've ALLOWED. The blight doesn't have to mean death or the end of the story (remember Jesus with his beloved friend, Lazarus, who died from an illness and came back to life). I let go of the story--I give all of my creations/stories their FREEDOM of BEING. I breathe with ease and let them gracefully transmute and change into the unique butterflies they are--matching my grace-filled radiance, beam for beam.
All is truly well in all of Creation...And so it is.
P.S. I just gave my beloved cherry tree a proper name--Lazarus! He's been hanging out with the two spruce trees, Arthur and Merlin, for years now. I've discovered that naming, with affection and love, whatever surrounds me--no matter how he or she looks on the outside--changes everything. They are no longer just trees, rocks, birds or animals--they're my beloved friends and earthly companions.
Take a breath, walk like a master, and remember--
"All is well in all of Creation."
And I keep walking and breathing and remembering that until I'm radiating peace and calm in place of the fretting and anxiety.
In a shoud in 2004, Beloved Ascended (Self-) Master Kuthumi said that the one thing he'd asked himself after he'd ascended was, "If you knew everything was going to turn out all right in the end--that that was the potential you'd chosen to experience--would you have done things differently, would you have worried less?"
My Beloved Self-Master, Adamus Saint-Germain, ends every shoud with the reminder, "All is well in all of Creation."
There is a reason for that:
Every time we look and feel inside and outside ourselves, we've been ingrained to look for things that are wrong in our world--injustices, disease, death, suffering, to name a few.
Looking for the things that are "wrong"--that there is "a need" to fix or fulfill--is a symptom and perpetuator of the SEXUAL ENERGY VIRUS in consciousness. (For more on this topic click here).
The quickest way to bring it to a halt is to breathe deep down into your belly (it eases the energies and lowers the panic)--and say over and over, "All is well in all of Creation."
When you do that--you lower your blood pressure and heart rate (the Fight or Flight Response), you radiate that out to the Universe in place of the tension and worry, and it matches it in kind--All simply becomes well in all of Creation.
You've centered and allowed yourself to re-balance.
So whenever I feel a physical pain, I take a breath and remind myself that all is well. It all passes eventually--some symptoms faster than others. But I don't suffer acute pain for very long anymore. For me, a diagnosis only makes it into a story and a fight, so I don't even go there anymore. I just realize, as Kuthumi did--everything is turning out okay (I've chosen that potential) so I'm no longer going to fret over it. I'm going to enjoy my life, even if that means taking a nap to ease the pain of the symptoms for myself in the moment at hand. Nothing is really wrong at all. (Click here for some physical symptoms of my awakening.)
I remind myself that a caterpillar who dissolves into mush (inside a comfy cocoon) on its way to transforming into the grand butterfly is probably going to experience some pain in the process.
When I was chosen for jury duty and had no desire to play in that game any longer (sitting as a judge of others didn't resonate with me), I let go of fighting or defending my stance on it; and instead chose to breathe and let the whole story go (allowed the Universe to match my ease). And though I'd been chosen for jury selection in two trials, they were miraculously settled out of court and I never had to go in.
And when I find myself in the midst of relationship squabbles, I breathe, step back to get a broader perspective--and realize that those squabbling are actually enjoying the experience--that there is nothing I need to mediate or fix for others.
In essence, I've immersed myself in enough experiences and stories and fears to realize that it all really does work out in the end. I'm done searching for, and pointing out all the "wrong" things in my world.
The cherry tree outside my window seemingly exploding with blackened scabs that I was taught was a blight that needed pruning the right way, I choose to now view it as the opportunity to see a new world unfurling before my eyes--effortlessly, with ease and grace that I've ALLOWED. The blight doesn't have to mean death or the end of the story (remember Jesus with his beloved friend, Lazarus, who died from an illness and came back to life). I let go of the story--I give all of my creations/stories their FREEDOM of BEING. I breathe with ease and let them gracefully transmute and change into the unique butterflies they are--matching my grace-filled radiance, beam for beam.
All is truly well in all of Creation...And so it is.
P.S. I just gave my beloved cherry tree a proper name--Lazarus! He's been hanging out with the two spruce trees, Arthur and Merlin, for years now. I've discovered that naming, with affection and love, whatever surrounds me--no matter how he or she looks on the outside--changes everything. They are no longer just trees, rocks, birds or animals--they're my beloved friends and earthly companions.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Walk Like a Master
This is about as simple as I can make it, and when life feels chaotic, and out of control, you want something simple to help you laugh through it: Close your eyes, take deep (down into your belly) conscious breaths until you feel yourself tingling, and carry yourself like you own that Gift of Life that is YOURS! Be the OBSERVER/Master of Your Life--and watch the dramas fall away...
Most of us leave our bodies more than we're PRESENT in them. The conscious tingling-aware breath brings us back into them, and says, "I exist! I'm here! I accept all that I am!"--the energies ABUNDANTLY rush in to support that CHOICE to LIVE and to BE. It's that simple.
The way I see it--you could skip reading everything else I've written in this blog, and focus instead on walking around like, acting like, a master. Like you're the MASTER of YOUR OWN LIFE. EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. EVERY BREATH...
This is all just an ILLUSION tailored to you--
own your unique world, take charge, and
WALK LIKE you are the MASTER of it...
Well, because you are.
My perspective is this is my life--my reality illusion--and I'm the source and center of this specific bubble of biology. A few months ago, Adamus Saint-Germain of crimsoncircle.com reminded us to "Act like a master until you realize--as did all the (self-)masters before--that it's all, life is, just an act."
Consider the posture of a master. In my eyes--everyone is a potential self-master, even those currently utilizing a wheel chair or a bed. Just close your eyes and feel yourself, your body stand erect--forget about studying your reflection in the mirror to see if you're holding yourself upright--CLOSE THOSE EYES AND FEEL THE REAL YOU standing tall!
Masters carry themselves with confidence, whether sitting or walking or lying down. They breathe with such ease that it's automatic. Their shoulders are straight--not rounded or hunched over in apology or shame or woe-begone self-pity. Their heads are level--like a runway model who's taught to balance a book on the top of her head while imagining a taut thread running along her spine and out the crown.
A master's eyes are direct, twinkling and unflinching. He steps with complete trust in himself--and if she trips, she's the first to laugh at herself with gusto!
Self-masters know there are no right or wrong experiences. There's simply a master choosing to have an experience.
Masters don't whine. Ahhhhhhhhhh...... Commiseration and pity would be obsolete.
Masters don't have to spend years processing painful old stories and emotions from their past. They just realize and accept that they gave themselves ample opportunities to drive themselves inward to find their treasured inheritance within, thus to shake themselves awake to their own inner mastery.
Masters don't second-guess, analyze or doubt themselves. It is what it is in the moment--and it's naturally appropriate. I used to mentally revisit my past interactions over and over again, trying to figure out if I said things the "right" way, castigating myself for my "wrong" actions and reactions. What a massive amount of energy devoted and directed to something that is no longer even real--the past. When a moment is done--it's past. And the next moment is a chance for something new and different, if the master chooses.
Masters don't hurry due to feeling time constraints--they enjoy each step of their journey. It can be a running step or a lolly-gagging meander--doesn't matter. The master knows that time will serve her, if she chooses to allow it to do so. They don't metaphorically or literally punch a time clock--rushing around like the Mad Hatter (of Alice in Wonderland), EXTREMELY BUSY racing around like a chicken with its head cut off. Unfortunately, I know exactly what that looks like--I used to have to help Mom butcher chickens.
Busy rushers aren't present in the moment--they're so far ahead into the future, fear is one of the foundations that they're creating from. CLOSE YOUR EYES sometime when you're feeling hurried and rushed (not when driving, of course)--that clenched jaw, shoulder-tightness, stomach-braced-for-a-punch energy you're emoting is what you're radiating out into the Universe as a personal truth: "I'm in a hurry." And so it is--the Universe lovingly places things in such a way as to keep you "hurrying." As I've tried to impress before--"I am..." STATEMENTS are potent creators, especially when supported by your EMOTIONS.
Masters simply don't hurry. They don't rush around like rats in a maze scrambling for a bit of sweet instant gratification from someone else out there (the human who built the maze and doles out the treats).
Masters don't worry, because they understand that this life on Earth is an illusion playground where we can act out all kinds of stories and things to relate to (remember Einstein's Theory of Relativity), and with, without true harm being done to anyone or anything. Think about it for a moment--stories are a way to RELATE with each other--Einstein gave the theory that simple name for a reason. This earth experience is for each of us, our very own virtual reality game being played out like the characters did in the holodeck of the starship, Enterprise, on Star Trek: The Next Generation--only WAY MORE COOL!
Masters realize life is their gift to live their own way--they aren't living it according to some limited, freedom-stopping whim of fate or destiny. The Source of ALL that Is, said, "Go out, my beloved children--express and experience and discover all that you are..." No conditions attached--there didn't need to be any.
Life doesn't live the master. The master LIVES life.
I'm going to keep this one short. I spend a great portion of my days checking in with myself to feel if I'm carrying myself as the master I do know that I am. And in those moments and situations when I feel myself overwhelmed and caught up in some old story that I know is sucky--I always return to reminding myself to CLOSE MY EYES--BREATHE CONSCIOUSLY and DEEP until I TINGLE--go out and walk, sip that cappuccino, or nap, like a master, and I'm soon restored and at peace.
So PLAY with acting like a master--use that wonderful sense of personal humor...it's honestly the most profound advice I could share with you...
You don't have to spend decades, like I did, learning to walk like a master--from this point on, JUST WALK LIKE A MASTER. It's really that simple.
Much love and appreciation, my beloved fellow sovereign master- friends. I see you as such, and that's how I choose to interact with you...
You da Butterflies!
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