Christ Consciousness: Rest Assured--No Soul is Truly Lost

How many lightworkers does it take to change a world? 

Just one.

This was a question asked and answered years ago by the entities known as The Group, channeled through Steve and Barbara Rother of espavo.com. And the answer resonates as strongly with me today as it did back then, because it means to me that I can change my world and you can change your world, and neither of us has to preach to the other from pulpits, podiums, street corners or blogs--or try to convince anyone outside of oneself to get on our unique bandwagon in order to do so. It means I can be compassionately hands-off and honor others in the experiencing of their individual lives while loving my own sovereignty--my own gift called life.

That inner knowingness of mine had me aware, for many years, that the only way I was going to change my world was by getting to know myself better first; then, when choosing to make more conscious change in me, my world would naturally follow suit. I've known I shouldn't have to grapple with, and try to force, the world outside of me to fit. I knew it had to be easier than that.

I have watched politically-minded, religious-minded, and legal-minded individuals fight and try to convince the outside world to do it their way, and end up compromising so much that all integrity is lost--freedoms are taken and handed over on platters--and still the struggle to live together in harmony continues. It has been done so for eons.

I encourage you to take a look at all the laws in the books--legal and religious. There are laws that don't even make sense anymore. If you cannot read and understand those letters of the law (even though they're written in what appears to be your first language)--without a lawyer--should you be responsible and accountable for that law? Does it even make sense to try? I used to try to follow all those laws perfectly--and I was a perfect example of a walking ulcer.

And just because you maybe had a traumatic experience due to a certain situation, is it your place to force your fears and beliefs (based on that singular experience) on someone else by making a law that takes away another's freedom, their discernment as to the most appropriate action or reaction in their own unique moment at hand? Have you thought, instead, about sharing your story and insights gained from your experiences in order to increase awareness--that maybe you don't need a frickin' "I'm-on-my-self-righteous-high-horse-because-I'm-feeling-powerless" law to bring about a change?

Laws should be few, simple, flexible and clear--honoring all of life--instead of prolific as rabbits and as whimsical as fashion trends, full of small print and muddy terms.

Of course, we need living-in-harmony guidelines for things such as traffic so everyone knows what to expect and who should go first, etc. so we can reduce the number of collisions with one another--again, that's common sense. But maybe we should start thinking in terms of guidelines in place of lettered, written-in-stone laws.

Have you noticed how uncomfortable a government employee (a trained monkey) is when you give them an answer to a question that doesn't match the ones that can be nicely checked off in a box on an "everybody-else-needs-to-save-a-tree-but-us" pile of paper? Any time I see anyone shuffling a bunch of forms (hard-copy paper or computer) with small-print legalese I think, now there's someone trying to look busy in order to justify keeping their--you know it just has to be miserable--job.

Self-awareness and conscious presence will eventually one day make even those safety guidelines obsolete--we just have to start using it.

Is it just me, or does anyone else notice that mass consciousness ASSUMES everyone is a CRIMINAL first?

Case in point, stop in your local library and check out the ever-changing tax codes and their definitions and wording. And then just breathe that in for a bit and allow your inner knowingness COMMON SENSE to rise to the forefront. There really should be no such things as special legal definitions of commonly used terms such as "person, individual, citizen, employee, official"... Some of those legal terms make YOU--a natural freeborn being--a "subject of" (the slave of) an outside party--that, my friends, is energy-feeding, the sexual energy virus. Someone is asking you to give your personal sovereignty away to them--many don't ask, they just tell you it's "the right thing to do."

Don't be afraid to start asking questions about these things--especially when you can first ask it of yourself, and discover how you really feel and think about your life and the situations you experience. You've got absolutely nothing to lose by asking yourself the question first--except maybe some fears start to fall away. Keep it simple, and allow yourself to make changes and exceptions for different scenarios and situations--be willing to walk a mile in another's moccasins, to shift your viewing perspective around A LOT for the clearest choice with the most integrity and honoring of freedom for all.

Should you be accountable for breaking laws you're unaware of? When you sign a contract, shouldn't the other party have to sign an accountable name for their party, as well--and be held accountable when their practices aren't up to par?

When you enter into a contract shouldn't you do so voluntarily, with full comprehension and knowingness? How many of us were taught that in our formal education in K-12 grades when we were taught how to fill out an income tax form and sign our name to a one-sided contract? I sure wasn't. I wasn't taught anything in all my years of formal schooling about how to be a self-responsible sovereign living in harmony with fellow sovereigns.

I was basically taught to be a slave to the system in place (you know, like get a job that totally defines my identity and worth in this world, and then vote for the lesser of the two or three evils running for some office, supposedly representing me and my views). Most of those perpetuating that belief system aren't doing so with any sense of awareness. They're deep asleep in a belief system--and you don't want to fight with people in the middle of their nightmares. They're like cornered beasts--they do things cruelly and intimidatingly, out of a sense of personal survival and ego identity. And they will do everything in their power to try to keep you afraid and intimidated, to keep you under control--all in hopes of them feeling safe and secure.

In the Old Testament story about Moses, it tells about his big ah-Ha! moment with the burning bush--he walked away from that shrub of awareness realizing, pondering and repeating to himself,  "I am that I am...hmmm..."

When I looked into declaring my own sovereignty two decades ago, the top of the documents we were taught to file stated the words, "I am that I am--natural, freeborn..."

So when Adamus Saint Germain of crimsoncircle.com began every shoud/channel with the with words, "I am that I am, Adamus Saint Germain of sovereign domain...,"--I KNEW this was it! This was my key to my own self-sovereignty, and it didn't require filing any documents or arguing or fighting with anybody. It was doing like Moses did--going forward in my life with that as the foundation of every breath I breathe, every self-expression and every experience.

Frankly, self-aware sovereign of my domain that I am, I'm nothing to be afraid of--but I'm nothing to be messed with anymore either. I no longer play the old games--I command sleeping suckers (visible or invisible) to transmute/change/"play nice" or leave my presence.

I love the parables Yeshua/Jesus used to share his messages--two of my favorites have been about the Prodigal Son and the Shepherd Who Brought Home Every Single Sheep. In the story of the shepherd and the scattered sheep, not one sheep was left alone and lost, no matter how long it took to connect with him/her. Time and distance didn't matter.

People who are deep-asleep in their illusion-realities are afraid of their own shadows, and so they try to control everyone and everything around them in order to feel safe--and they often try to do so by making rules for others to follow...

My friends--you're not sheep who need a master shepherd (for instance, someone like a "Savior Jesus"--I honestly don't feel that was his point to the parable) to run to the furthest corners of his pasture in order to find those of you who wandered off, got lost, stuck in a ravine in a flood, hung up in a fence, or trampled over and suffocated in a blizzard while following the blindest sheep--you know, that buck who's only at the head of the flock because he's high on fear adrenaline and running in sheer terror from some unknown evil out there. The rest of the sleepy, yet panic-stricken, sheep are following the raving lunatic simply because he's moving and appears to be headed somewhere.

I've always felt that Jesus was referring to something other than himself as the shepherd of humanity. That he was instead teaching about the CHRISTED ONE WITHIN EACH of US--that Divine Spark that remembers our eternal connectedness to the Source of All that Is. All of his other teachings seem to be saying the same thing. Don't look outside of yourself for teachers. They're going to say, "Look over here, look over there...Do this. Do that." Some of them might put on an entertaining show that provides a bit of distraction, but that's all it is.

Everywhere I've ever been, anything I've ever explored--the one teacher I always and only return to--IS ME--the one inside, the Christed light of god of my life that I am. I have discussions with myself all the time--and I'm damned proud of it!

My BELOVED SOUL has had many lifetimes of myriad expressions and roles--many of them I've spent as  a human on this awesome gift of self-discovery on a beloved jewel of life called Earth. In some of those expressions I know my all-alone-feeling human identity was lost, deep asleep, terrified enough to have done some evil acts--but loss of my soul was never an issue.

The Eternal Source made certain FROM THE BEGINNING that NO SOUL would ever be truly and completely lost. No matter how many eons or lifetimes it took, every last one would eventually remember and realize the CHRIST WITHIN ONESELF and would naturally then bring HOME to being wherever she/he is. And that by doing so, she'd also integrate into her whole BODY of CONSCIOUSNESS all those other "once-upon-a-time, lost-sheep soul expressions."

The awakened you is the shepherd who brings home, and integrates, all the other life expressions--the lost and the enlightened--of your ONE SOUL. That's the shepherd Yeshua was talking about in the parable.

In short, there's nothing you have to do (no paperwork to file) to claim your sovereignty--that's what "I am that I am--Sovereign of My Domain" means. You simply live it out.

I worship and bow to no one, but I honor and appreciate all of this gift called LIFE--and I bless it with FREEDOM--and I choose to live in harmony with all that is. And so it becomes...

These are some of  my answers to my questions. I encourage everyone to ask and discover your own.


An IMPORTANT reminder:

Are you humorously walking like a master--The Master--of your own life? 

You don't have to search for the other life-expressions of your soul in order to integrate them--ALLOW your ENLIGHTENMENT, breathe consciously until you tingle, and just invite them HOME (to you), with hands-off compassion (not pity), while continuing to act like the master that you are.

There are old wounded aspects of your soul who tend to have tantrums and try to take over your life. You'll become aware of the stories and feelings they bring up in your being by the dramas, or sometimes physical or emotional symptoms, happening in your current life. When you do, COMMAND them to integrate peacefully, or leave your presence until they choose to come HOME gracefully. Tantrums don't need to be tolerated...

I had some tantrum-throwers, and they liked to run my show--always chattering in my head, clamouring to be heard above all the others. At first, it was frustrating discerning them because it all felt like it was me, but CLOSING MY EYES and practicing the CONSCIOUS, SELF-AWARE BREATHING-until-I-TINGLED got me centered in my own PRESENCE, and at ease enough so I could separate out the naughty, sometimes self-pitying brats.

The more you BREATHE CONSCIOUSLY and are at EASE in YOUR OWN SKIN, the more, then, you realize who you really are--the steadfast and flowing master of your own life--and the easier it becomes to perceive all other aspects and life expressions of your soul.

YOU ARE the LIGHT of HOME...close your eyes and feel that warm and tingling awareness when you breathe, and say, "I am HOME..."

Dorothy Lynch Chicken Salad with Grapes

Dorothy Lynch Chicken Salad with Grapes
Submitted by Penny Lewton Binek

This is one of Leona Lewton's family's favorite recipes for summer gatherings at the farm or when fishing down at Haley Dam--she's the one who started adding Dorothy Lynch Dressing to a chicken salad with grapes in it, and I decided to spice up the chicken.
Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing must be a mid-western thing, so in case your grocery store doesn't carry it, I'll include a recipe for it. I usually just dump the salad ingredients together, adjusting amounts depending on how full my bowl looks so my measurements here are approximations.

1 lb. Chicken Breasts, cooked and cubed (I often cube a package of chicken breasts and brown it in 1 Tbsp. of oil, then simmer it 5 minutes--until cooked through--with a packet of Chicken Taco seasoning and a 1/2 cup of water. Set aside to cool).

1 box (4 c.) Dry Medium Shell Macaroni (cook according to package instructions, rinse with cold water and set aside to drain)
3-4 Stalks Celery, chopped
1 Cucumber, quartered lengthwise and sliced in 1/4-3/8 inch wide pieces (I like English Burpless Cucumbers with the peelings on if available, but I've peeled the cucumber, too)
2 c. Red Seedless Grapes, halved
1-2 c. Grated Colby-Jack or Pepper Jack Cheese
1-2 c. Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing
Romaine Lettuce (optional)
Fresh-ground Black Pepper to taste

Place all the salad ingredients in a large serving bowl. Pour 1 cup of the salad dressing over the rest of the ingredients and gently toss until everything is coated, adding more dressing as needed to desired taste and smoothness. Chill and serve in a large bowl or over Romaine lettuce on individual plates. I like to serve this with kettle-cooked potato chips on the side. Approximately 6 servings. Prep. time: 30 minutes.

Also--this is just a standard recipe--I encourage creativity in exploring more fruits and vegetables to add. I've added apples in the past. Fresh pineapple might be good, too.


Dorothy Lynch Salad Dressing

1 c. Sugar (or 2/3 c. Honey)
1 tsp. Celery Seed
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Garlic Powder
1 tsp. Black Pepper
1 c. Salad Oil
1 tsp. Dry Mustard
1/2 c. White Vinegar
1 can Tomato Soup

Blend in blender. Store in refrigerator.

We love this dressing! We use it in crab salads and as a table salad dressing, too. It's also a delicious condiment for meats--works great as a BBQ sauce for grilling.

Blackberry Brandy Apple Pie

Blackberry Brandy Apple Pie

Preheat oven: 375 Degrees Fahrenheit

Filling:
In a large mixing bowl combine:
1/2 c. Sugar
2 tsp. Cinnamon
1 Tbsp. Cornstarch
1/4 c. Blackberry Brandy
1 t. Vanilla

Toss into bowl to evenly coat with the brandy mixture and set aside while mixing crust:
6-8 Granny Smith Apples, peeled and sliced (enough to heap into a pie plate, mounded 2-3 inches higher than the rim)

Preheat oven to 425 degrees Fahrenheit

Pie Crust:
Using a wire whisk, sift together the dry ingredients:
2 c. Flour, All-purpose
1 tsp. Salt
1/2 tsp. Baking Powder
1 tsp. Cornstarch

Using a pastry blender, cut into the flour mixture until coarsely distributed:
2/3 c. Lard (When I come up with a really tasty substitute for this, I'll post it here)
2 Tbsp. Butter

Mix together and pour 1 Tablespoon at a time, into center of crumb mixture, tossing lightly with a fork until dough sticks together:
1 Tbsp.Apple Cider Vinegar
5 Tbsp. Ice-cold Water
1 t. Vanilla
1 t Blackberry Brandy

Gently pat dough to form a ball, divide in half. Roll out the first half on a lightly floured surface to make the bottom crust, gently laying it in the pie plate and up and over the sides. Trim the circle with a sharp knife, leaving 3/4-1 inch of dough draping over the edge.  

Mix the apples a bit and pour entire contents into the bottom crust, patting the apples into place. Dot with a couple Tablespoons of butter.

Roll 2nd half of pastry dough into a circle large enough to cover the apples and drape over the rim of the pie plate. Using a sharp knife, make a few decorative air holes in the top crust to vent. I use an egg wash of 1 well-beaten egg mixed with 2 tsp. water to brush around the rim of the bottom crust to seal the two crust layers together at the edges. Pinch to form a scalloped edge.

*(I've been playing with lattice crusts lately, in which case I use a pizza cutter to cut the 2nd pastry circle into 1/2-inch strips to weave like a basket across the top. I roll the bottom lip over the strips at the edge and pinch the crusts to make a scalloped edge).*

Using a pastry brush, brush the entire surface of the pie with the egg wash and sprinkle with cinnamon and sugar (or just plain sugar).

Place foil around edge to prevent burned edges. Place on center rack of preheated oven, and bake at 375 degrees, 50-60 minutes until bubbly and apples are soft and tender enough to poke through with a knife or toothpick. .

We like our pie with a small scoop of Vanilla Bean or Butter Pecan ice cream.

All Is Well in All of Creation

When I find myself caught up in a story (a soap opera drama-trauma), worrying and stewing with mind chatter racing through, causing my shoulders and jaws to tighten and clench, my stomach to roil--"What's wrong? What's wrong? Something's wrong here."--I remind myself:

Take a breath, walk like a master, and remember--
"All is well in all of Creation."

And I keep walking and breathing and remembering that until I'm radiating peace and calm in place of the fretting and anxiety.

In a shoud in 2004, Beloved Ascended (Self-) Master Kuthumi said that the one thing he'd asked himself after he'd ascended was, "If you knew everything was going to turn out all right in the end--that that was the potential you'd chosen to experience--would you have done things differently, would you have worried less?"

My Beloved Self-Master, Adamus Saint-Germain, ends every shoud with the reminder, "All is well in all of Creation."

There is a reason for that:

Every time we look and feel inside and outside ourselves, we've been ingrained to look for things that are wrong in our world--injustices, disease, death, suffering, to name a few.

Looking for the things that are "wrong"--that there is "a need" to fix or fulfill--is a symptom and perpetuator of the SEXUAL ENERGY VIRUS in consciousness. (For more on this topic click here).

The quickest way to bring it to a halt is to breathe deep down into your belly (it eases the energies and lowers the panic)--and say over and over, "All is well in all of Creation."

When you do that--you lower your blood pressure and heart rate (the Fight or Flight Response), you radiate that out to the Universe in place of the tension and worry, and it matches it in kind--All simply becomes well in all of Creation.

You've centered and allowed yourself to re-balance.

So whenever I feel a physical pain, I take a breath and remind myself that all is well. It all passes eventually--some symptoms faster than others. But I don't suffer acute pain for very long anymore. For me, a diagnosis only makes it into a story and a fight, so I don't even go there anymore. I just realize, as Kuthumi did--everything is turning out okay (I've chosen that potential) so I'm no longer going to fret over it. I'm going to enjoy my life, even if that means taking a nap to ease the pain of the symptoms for myself in the moment at hand. Nothing is really wrong at all. (Click here for some physical symptoms of my awakening.)

I remind myself that a caterpillar who dissolves into mush (inside a comfy cocoon) on its way to transforming into the grand butterfly is probably going to experience some pain in the process.

When I was chosen for jury duty and had no desire to play in that game any longer (sitting as a judge of others didn't resonate with me), I let go of fighting or defending my stance on it; and instead chose to breathe and let the whole story go (allowed the Universe to match my ease). And though I'd been chosen for jury selection in two trials, they were miraculously settled out of court and I never had to go in.

And when I find myself in the midst of relationship squabbles, I breathe, step back to get a broader perspective--and realize that those squabbling are actually enjoying the experience--that there is nothing I need to mediate or fix for others.

In essence, I've immersed myself in enough experiences and stories and fears to realize that it all really does work out in the end. I'm done searching for, and pointing out all the "wrong" things in my world.

The cherry tree outside my window seemingly exploding with blackened scabs that I was taught was a blight that needed pruning the right way, I choose to now view it as the opportunity to see a new world unfurling before my eyes--effortlessly, with ease and grace that I've ALLOWED. The blight doesn't have to mean death or the end of the story (remember Jesus with his beloved friend, Lazarus, who died from an illness and came back to life). I let go of the story--I give all of my creations/stories their FREEDOM of BEING. I breathe with ease and let them gracefully transmute and change into the unique butterflies they are--matching my grace-filled radiance, beam for beam.

All is truly well in all of Creation...And so it is.


P.S. I just gave my beloved cherry tree a proper name--Lazarus! He's been hanging out with the two spruce trees, Arthur and Merlin, for years now. I've discovered that naming, with affection and love, whatever surrounds me--no matter how he or she looks on the outside--changes everything. They are no longer just trees, rocks, birds or animals--they're my beloved friends and earthly companions.

Walk Like a Master

This is about as simple as I can make it, and when life feels chaotic, and out of control, you want something simple to help you laugh through it: Close your eyes, take deep (down into your belly) conscious breaths until you feel yourself tingling, and carry yourself like you own that Gift of Life that is YOURS! Be the OBSERVER/Master of Your Life--and watch the dramas fall away...

Most of us leave our bodies more than we're PRESENT in them. The conscious tingling-aware breath brings us back into them, and says, "I exist! I'm here! I accept all that I am!"--the energies ABUNDANTLY rush in to support that CHOICE to LIVE and to BE. It's that simple.

The way I see it--you could skip reading everything else I've written in this blog, and focus instead on walking around like, acting like, a master. Like you're the MASTER of YOUR OWN LIFE. EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. EVERY BREATH...

This is all just an ILLUSION tailored to you--
own your unique world, take charge, and
WALK LIKE you are the MASTER of it...

Well, because you are.

My perspective is this is my life--my reality illusion--and I'm the source and center of this specific bubble of biology. A few months ago, Adamus Saint-Germain of crimsoncircle.com reminded us to "Act like a master until you realize--as did all the (self-)masters before--that it's all, life is, just an act."

Consider the posture of a master. In my eyes--everyone is a potential self-master, even those currently utilizing a wheel chair or a bed. Just close your eyes and feel yourself, your body stand erect--forget about studying your reflection in the mirror to see if you're holding yourself upright--CLOSE THOSE EYES AND FEEL THE REAL YOU standing tall!

Masters carry themselves with confidence, whether sitting or walking or lying down. They breathe with such ease that it's automatic. Their shoulders are straight--not rounded or hunched over in apology or shame or woe-begone self-pity. Their heads are level--like a runway model who's taught to balance a book on the top of her head while imagining a taut thread running along her spine and out the crown.

A master's eyes are direct, twinkling and unflinching. He steps with complete trust in himself--and if she trips, she's the first to laugh at herself with gusto!

Self-masters know there are no right or wrong experiences. There's simply a master choosing to have an experience.

Masters don't whine. Ahhhhhhhhhh...... Commiseration and pity would be obsolete.

Masters don't have to spend years processing painful old stories and emotions from their past. They just realize and accept that they gave themselves ample opportunities to drive themselves inward to find their treasured inheritance within, thus to shake themselves awake to their own inner mastery.

Masters don't second-guess, analyze or doubt themselves. It is what it is in the moment--and it's naturally appropriate. I used to mentally revisit my past interactions over and over again, trying to figure out if I said things the "right" way, castigating myself for my "wrong" actions and reactions. What a massive amount of energy devoted and directed to something that is no longer even real--the past. When a moment is done--it's past. And the next moment is a chance for something new and different, if the master chooses.

Masters don't hurry due to feeling time constraints--they enjoy each step of their journey. It can be a running step or a lolly-gagging meander--doesn't matter. The master knows that time will serve her, if she chooses to allow it to do so. They don't metaphorically or literally punch a time clock--rushing around like the Mad Hatter (of Alice in Wonderland), EXTREMELY BUSY racing around like a chicken with its head cut off. Unfortunately, I know exactly what that looks like--I used to have to help Mom butcher chickens.

Busy rushers aren't present in the moment--they're so far ahead into the future, fear is one of the foundations that they're creating from. CLOSE YOUR EYES sometime when you're feeling hurried and rushed (not when driving, of course)--that clenched jaw, shoulder-tightness, stomach-braced-for-a-punch energy you're emoting is what you're radiating out into the Universe as a personal truth: "I'm in a hurry." And so it is--the Universe lovingly places things in such a way as to keep you "hurrying." As I've tried to impress before--"I am..." STATEMENTS are potent creators, especially when supported by your EMOTIONS.

Masters simply don't hurry. They don't rush around like rats in a maze scrambling for a bit of sweet instant gratification from someone else out there (the human who built the maze and doles out the treats).

Masters don't worry, because they understand that this life on Earth is an illusion playground where we can act out all kinds of stories and things to relate to (remember Einstein's Theory of Relativity), and with, without true harm being done to anyone or anything. Think about it for a moment--stories are a way to RELATE with each other--Einstein gave the theory that simple name for a reason. This earth experience is for each of us, our very own virtual reality game being played out like the characters did in the holodeck of the starship, Enterprise, on Star Trek: The Next Generation--only WAY MORE COOL!

Masters realize life is their gift to live their own way--they aren't living it according to some limited, freedom-stopping whim of fate or destiny. The Source of ALL that Is, said, "Go out, my beloved children--express and experience and discover all that you are..." No conditions attached--there didn't need to be any.

Life doesn't live the master. The master LIVES life.

I'm going to keep this one short. I spend a great portion of my days checking in with myself to feel if I'm carrying myself as the master I do know that I am. And in those moments and situations when I feel myself overwhelmed and caught up in some old story that I know is sucky--I always return to reminding myself to CLOSE MY EYES--BREATHE CONSCIOUSLY and DEEP until I TINGLE--go out and walk, sip that cappuccino, or nap, like a master, and I'm soon restored and at peace.

So PLAY with acting like a master--use that wonderful sense of personal humor...it's honestly the most profound advice I could share with you...

You don't have to spend decades, like I did, learning to walk like a master--from this point on, JUST WALK LIKE A MASTER. It's really that simple.

Much love and appreciation, my beloved fellow sovereign master- friends. I see you as such, and that's how I choose to interact with you...

You da Butterflies!

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The Virtual Reality Game--A Grand Illusion

Perhaps this should be Chapter One of all my other blog posts, for I'm going to describe here metaphorically how I view this world as my personally unique reality-world-illusion--and how I am the source and center of its creation.

If you're a Star Trek: The Next Generation fan, you'll remember episodes where the characters went to the holodeck on their spaceship, the Enterprise, to play a virtual reality game. That's how I view my life and world:

I'm in the midst of a virtual reality game hologram that My Soul willingly CHOSE to experience and play. And I'm playing it alongside and with other souls who have freely chosen to play the game, as well.

I am the central pinpoint of conscious self-awareness in a bubble of biology that surrounds me--a hologram of potential experiences.

And that hologram constantly adjusts itself to match--and burst into beingness--whatever I radiate out from the center that I "feelingly"CHOOSE to EXPERIENCE. 

That hologram Universe co-creates for me my choices and accepted truths of the moment.

This view is the basis from which I write all the other ideas, and why I act the way I do, and make the choices I currently make.

Before I began awakening to my spiritual/divine self, I viewed myself as an actor on a stage, playing out a role someone else (God out there somewhere) had written for me. Often, I felt like a puppet on a string, with no power over my life or my happiness. All I had was a pre-determined destiny or fate, a path that forked in two different directions, towards the choice between two obscure and esoteric destinations--Heaven or Hell. Where I ended up when I died was determined by how I performed--whether I made "right" or "wrong" choices while I lived.

Then after several life-altering, and often shattering, experiences, I began to ask deeper questions about this stage I was on, the stories I was in, and the roles I was playing. The most important question I found myself asking was, "Who am I, really?"

No one outside of me seemed able to satisfyingly answer any of those questions, and that drove me to constantly go inward to discover my answers. Those were the only ones that I really trusted wholeheartedly.

I suddenly concluded that I wasn't just an actor in someone else's play--I was its author--I wrote the scripts and roles for others to play for me and with me. 

I was the co-creator/producer, director, set designer and the STAR of my own show playing roles of my choosing...And I was my best audience!

I realized I'd been UNCONSCIOUSLY writing and co-creating and acting and observing and experiencing my own "Let's pretend" play the entire time.

I began to ponder what I could create when I could do so KNOWINGLY--when I was FULLY AWAKE (not just a bored or upset robot actor going through familiar motions and established patterns--aka, belief systems--over and over again).

I noticed that I'd make a "mental choice" and try to envision it to make it more real, but I couldn't bring it into being if I didn't truly FEEL (actually believe) it as a possibility. Mere visualization techniques didn't work for me--I had to become aware of the emotions I was radiating out when making a choice. I had to get in touch with my heart (deepest desires) and sensuality.

I had a lot of unanswered prayers; and I had things happen (loved ones died) that I, as a lone human, didn't consciously choose but seemingly couldn't avoid or prevent either.

I realized that in order to get a better understanding of the play I had going, all I had to do was take an actual BREATHER from the story, step out of my current acting role on the whole stage and sit above it in the director chair, or back from it in the audience seats, in order to get a clearer view of the dynamics of the illusion.

I simply SHIFTED my PERSPECTIVE of the scene--expanded my awareness of all of it on many different levels.

I began to imagine what identities and roles I could immerse myself in for a bit without getting stuck in an experience I no longer enjoyed--all because NOW I was SELF-AWARE of my being the co-creating/expressing god of my own world of experience. My boxy world was thrown wide open to possibilities I'd never imagined before!

Essentially, I am now writing and creating and acting in a NEW PLAY--a new world. This new hologram is tailored just for me by a divine-human me who is finally AWAKE and in touch with all other aspects of MY SOUL!

I am no longer feeling like an all-alone insignificant little human begging for my little prayers to be answered--or not. And I'm no longer creating my life from that downer of a perspective.

I am the source and center of this Grand Illusion and Gift from the Source of All that I call my own life! And I've been passionately driven for decades to discover how to enjoy it as the gift I believe it was intended to be--and to live it my way, without harming anyone or anything in order to do so...

My blog has been written with this model in mind...

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"I need..." Indicates the Sexual Energy Virus Is Present

The next time you're in a busy shopping mall, grocery store, or superstore like Walmart or Target, find a spot where no one will collide with you, and close your eyes. Feel into the energies around you and flowing in you and through you--feel into what you're personally radiating out into your world. The mental and emotional energy I have always felt most prominent in such places is:

"I need..."

"I need something or someone in order to feel happy...to feel SAFE...to feel good about myself...to feel complete...to feel loved...to be accepted, noticed, appreciated..., etc."

A few years ago, this "neediness energy" would be such a bombardment of my senses that it literally stopped me in my tracks in the middle of the shopping mall or Walmart. It was embarrassing. I couldn't move either of my legs forward until I closed my eyes, took a self-compassionate (kind-to-myself) breath and centered myself in me in the moment. All it took was a couple seconds, but it would be frustrating when I would be trying to keep pace with my husband--he'd get exasperated having to slow up and wait for me because he didn't understand it at the time--ha!

My brother experienced the same thing. For a long time neither of us was too enthused about going shopping or into crowded places. While entering the grandstand area for a Taylor Swift concert at the hot and crowded ND State Fair, I found myself asking my husband to help me find a place to sit so I could get my head lower than my knees--I experienced nausea, the sweats, clamminess and dizziness, and nearly fainted. On our passage through the carnival rides on the way to the concert, I'd been meeting people's eyes (windows to souls)--and I was still learning at that time how I was taking on other's energy stories (empathing) and holding them as my own. That was another disconcerting moment which passed once I got a sip of water and some quiet breaths in a quiet spot. I enjoyed the packed concert without any incident afterward.  

Thankfully, I've gotten quite adept at just breathing and flowing all energies through me and haven't experienced this phenomenon while out shopping or while in huge crowds in more recent years. I have however, experienced lately that self-masters don't hurry while out walking (they saunter or run for the joy of it, but they don't rush because of time constraints), but that's a whole other upcoming post.

Any time you realize you or others ARE SEARCHING for something OUTSIDE of oneself in order to feel complete, safe, and accepted--you are dealing with what is known as the SEXUAL ENERGY VIRUS that permeates mass consciousness. 

The old consciousness energy of humanity has been off-balanced to the masculine and mental--a more aggressive, forceful energy. As the Feminine has come forth to take her place as a FULL PARTNER WITH the Masculine, the consciousness has become more compassionate and intuitive--and FORCE does not work in the new energy. SELF-AWARENESS and ALLOWANCE are the keys in the new world. I keep seeing PASSION as the divine masculine, and COMPASSION as the divine feminine--and the two dancing together in full partnership feels like the most wondrous of celebrations. But that's just my take on things.

Consciousness is Awareness of Self--"I am! I am aware that I exist." 

Mass consciousness is a term used to describe the myriad waves of SUGGESTIONS of what is emotionally or passionately believed to be truth by a large number of humans. Ideas like "This is just how it is in the world, and this is how you have to be, and what you have to do" are mass consciousness BELIEFS. These streams of consciousness are flowing all around, and in, and through our individual consciousnesses at all times.

Energy, which serves us unconditionally and abundantly, comes in to match our personally radiated consciousness-- emotions and passions--and pops into manifestation whatever potential we've focused our conscious attention on. This is why not all our thoughts manifest--only the ones that we're emotionally triggering, FEELING, or passionately focused on (even if we're trying to avoid those thoughts and feelings).

This is why it's important to be aware of what is going on inside of oneself at all times: "What am I radiating? Am I OPEN and FLOWING? Or am I barricaded in, closed off, protective of myself?" Most of us have been walking around, tightly wrapped, on the defensive or offensive, in survival mode--thus, we keep getting energies serving us by bringing forth things for us to fight in our manifested realities. If I'm radiating out that I have issues I need to resolve--if I have protective walls up in my energy field----the energies serve me by giving me issues to mess about with.

Energy Feeding is a symptom of the sexual energy virus, which is just like a physical virus that infiltrates weak spots in a physical body--only this is a virus in CONSCIOUSNESS. Humans feed off the energies of others in order to feel better about themselves or to feel more powerful. The core energy underlying any type of energy-sucking is a personal sense of powerlessness at not feeling able to FREELY live one's own life. It's grasping for CONTROL over one's life by trying to manipulate and handle the external reality. But feeding off others energetically only keeps one imprisoned in that reality landscape.

One of the most frustrating forms of energy feeders for me has been people who insist on being the victims in every aspect of their life. I actually sprint in the opposite direction when I see them approaching me. Ha!

If you contract a viral infection in your physical body, a medical doctor will most likely tell you to go home, drink plenty of fluids, manage the painful symptoms by using foods and symptom medications to keep energies flowing--and get lots of rest until it's run its course.

I would prescribe the same thing (except for the medications or drugs) in the case of realizing the presence of the sexual energy virus in a relationship with another being outside of you. Step back from the relationship--the presence of the others. Give yourself "a rest" from interactions with the party illusion. If you poke and prod around, and fight with a disease, it often just becomes more insidious and pesky and spreads like wild-fire. So it is with this virus.

Instead, disconnect, get out of your head (mind chatter yammering) and don't try to analyze or judge the situation to death. Simply breathe (walk, go for a drive, nap, get out in nature, or go in a room alone) to flow the energies through easier. Stories are less likely to stick to you if you simply CHOOSE TO ALLOW energies and feelings to FREELY FLOW through you, regardless of their form or charge. That means not trying to keep from feeling and thinking things you've judged as being "right" or "wrong." Just allow yourself to immerse in all of it--get the fullness of the experience. That is what our soul is after--simply an honest, authentic experience undiluted by Little Human limitations and programmed expectations of how we think a perfect human should be. Drink a bit of water, and immerse yourself in soothing baths, showers or pools (water is known to help flow consciousness)--literally wash away those troubles and pains.

If you truly want to release yourself from the situation, DO NOT commiserate and tell your stories to others to get sympathy.

First, accept full responsibility for having chosen to give yourself that experience in whatever issue. You don't have to have a justifiable reason--you simply chose an experience to get a better understanding, "just because." 

Then, when you can share the story with others from that perspective, you won't be perpetuating the virus through blame.

I know this is a hard one to resist--but commiseration and whining to others will perpetuate the energy-feeding for anyone involved, even those listening to your stuff.

"If it's in my life, I put it there, and I'm deriving some benefit from it."

We all fall off the horse with the venting and commiseration stuff at times, so be kind and self-compassionate--laugh at yourself, with yourself, and others--when you do.

Walk through life with a sense of humor about everything, and you'll realize you've mastered your life.

Give yourself the SAFE and SACRED SPACE time alone in order to help you step back out of the illusion enough to see it from a clearer vantage point. That way you'll become aware of other POTENTIAL CHOICES that you couldn't see while in the midst of the struggle of the energy feeding situation/illusion.

Because I'm confident in each of us having the answers for oneself within oneself, I now find it much easier to gracefully tell a loved one who wants to vent with me (energetically feed off) to just take themselves off for a walk alone and just breathe...and remember your own KNOWINGNESS.

The SEXUAL ENERGY VIRUS is not a conspiracy!

People use the terms "energy feeding" and "energy stealing" interchangeably, but I don't like to use the word "stealing" because it implies that we're "victims" of some "conspirator" or "perpetrator"--and a fight like that actually FEEDS the VIRAL ILLUSION, and keeps it in place LONGER in our reality of the moment.

Most of the time, humans are UNCONSCIOUSLY feeding off other's energies. You know, even the most evil-acting "energy stealers" are simply beings who are deep asleep in their own belief that the identity--the roles they play in this lifetime--is all they are. Please don't pity them or feel sorry for them--that feeds the "evil" story they have going even more. Just be aware that they are asleep, and there is nothing you have to do with them or for them. They're immersed in an experience of their choosing--don't play in it with them if it's not fun for you.

Be aware that people often share stories that instill fear in others in order to feed off those fear-triggered emotional energies--it's why conspiracy theories run so rampantly over the Internet these days.

You can simply choose to quietly disconnect your relations with energy feeders. Breaking ties with a person doesn't have to involve a knock-down-drag-out fight. If they persist by invading your personal space, just command, "NO MORE! I am done!" What others do outside of you need not affect you--if you CHOOSE. They're just enjoying immersing themselves in an experience--we all are. Keep it as simple as that.

Or you could nip it in the bud, as I've often contemplated, and walk around with a grin on your face and a button pinned to your lapel that reads:
"This boob is all dried up--go suck elsewhere."

As I've awakened, I've realized there is no desire, much less any need, to feed off the energy of anyone or anything outside of me. The soap-opera "neediness" just disappears.

When we were kids we used to tease Mom about watching the soap opera, General Hospital, while she ironed piles of our clothes. I even got addicted to watching Days of Our Lives when I went to college--it was a way to relate with fellow students at the time. I don't even watch TV these days, though we do rent movies, but that's beside the point.

I've lately become aware of how many of the people around me are living out these soap operas in their "real" lives. All of this energy feeding tells me that many humans are bored with the status quo about life--they're simply starting to search for more...and that's a good thing. That's exactly what happened with me in my own awakening.

My point is--don't fret! Don't worry about this thing called the sexual energy virus. Don't fight with it. Just be aware that energy feeding exists, and that you become less affected by it simply by realizing you don't "need" anything--everything you desire is right at hand IN YOU!

You just have to DROP the WALLS and open yourself to ALLOWING yourself to RECEIVE it with EASE and GRACE. No thinking, no judging about what's "bad" or "good," no trying to figure out how. Just breathe and open yourself up...breathe and open...flow...

Love yourself first--don't look for someone outside of you to complete and love you first. It just won't be enough for you until you love yourself first. The purpose of the Sexual Energy Virus is to return you to you--the real you, the "I AM" within...

Love and appreciate your own life--and your world, and joyful abundance in all aspects, will simply follow suit...



P.S. Playing in the dramas/traumas of the sexual energy virus is a seductive game--it's easy to get caught up in self-doubt and mental details that keep you worrying over things you can't control (and aren't meant to control). I realized this morning an easy way to pop myself out of playing in drama. Taking a conscious breath, I remembered this:

I KNOW within that we're playing games of 
Let's Pretend: 

• Let's pretend we've got a disease and we're fighting it, trying to cure it...
• Let's pretend so-and-so is dying and leaving us permanently...
• Let's pretend we just can't seem to get along...
• Let's pretend I'm poor and insignificant...
• Let's pretend you have POWER over me...
• Let's pretend we're fighting wars (pretty much like the Cowboys and Indians pretend games from my childhood)...

I KNOW that these human bodies are the costumes we don in order to play our pretend games.

I KNOW these human identities are simply an act--they aren't the whole or true me.

I KNOW I am the master creator of my own reality, and that I can simply choose to harmonize with all you other master creators.

I KNOW that All is well in All of Creation...

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